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My Testosterone-Laden Self. An Essay
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Steph, You have caught me off guard here. I am not sure what to make of this. Why are you calling me a sicko troll? How does my posting an essay on here offend you or anyone else? I never meant to do anything wrong in here, so if you would kindly inform me on what I did wrong, I’d appreciate it. I jsut came here to get advice, some help, and maybe share a few things of myself with others. I’m a little hurt, now that I know what a troll is, and I dont really know how to react to this. I’m sorry for offending you, Steph. I jsut came here to get some help before I die. Shalom and God Bless, Gabby
: So you are just a sicko troll :
: My Testosterone-Laden Self : from my weight lifting days : : I recently bench-pressed 300 pounds at the gym. This isn’t : Earth-shattering, or anything – most gyms have a few guys who can top that : handily. But still, it’s a personal best, and the "300-Club" is relatively : hard to join. : : My euphoria over this milestone lasted for a few minutes until I : realized that – in real life – it doesn’t matter at all. : : : I work as a file manager in the Oncology ward at a hospital in : Reykjavik. I can’t really imagine my boss coming in and saying, "Nice work : on the report, Gabe. Oh, by the way, a large boulder has fallen in the : waiting room. When you get the chance, do you mind pushing it out of the : way? Thanks, I knew you were a team player." : : : I’m 6′2". So, at first, working out served a practical purpose in : that : people are less likely to bother you if you look like a lightly shaven : silverback. High school is a Darwinian experience. As I get older, though, : the threat of actual physical violence doesn’t seem as ever-present. There : aren’t any Office Bullies pushing me into filing cabinets or holding my : face : to the water cooler. Perhaps they’re in a meeting. : : : Working out can be addictive, almost a reversed-anorexia. "Okay, I : can : pick up exactly X pounds in steel-bar form, maybe, I’ll try five pounds : more : next week. I am a man of brawn!" – that sort of thing. : : : To be fair (fair to me, that is) society seems to have embraced the : whole "bigger is better" concept in some ridiculous ways. Men’s shirts : sizes : pretty much start at "medium". Even if you’re 5′3 and weigh 130, chances : are, you’re a medium. And, while there are big and tall stores in every : city, I read recently that there are less than 10 stores IN THE ENTIRE : U.S. : that overtly cater to small men. There’s a huge stigma attached to being : small, for men at least. For women, I think the opposite is true – and : this : leads to its own set of troubles. : : : Ever hear of the Napoleon Complex? It’s the idea that short people : overcompensate by being aggressive (you see, it’s fine to be tall and : aggressive, but if you’re short and aggressive, you have a psychological : problem). I think it’s a tall-person plot. : : : I won’t even touch on the whole pickup truck/SUVs craze, except to : say : that the usefulness of these things is vastly overrated, except as : alpha-male displays of status. How many people really NEED something that : can tow 9,000 pounds or carry eight people? Are you running an orphanage : in : Northern Vermont? Okay then, my bad! If not, it seems silly to buy : something : that’s a menace to other drivers and gets 14 miles-to-the-gallon just for : the two or three times a year you may want take a bunch of friends skiing : or : transport furniture. : : : Should you need help loading the furniture, please note that I can : bench 300. : : : : — : Shalom and God Bless, : Gabby : : : :
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Steph, You have caught me off guard here. I am not sure what to make of this. Why are you calling me a sicko troll? How does my posting an essay on here offend you or anyone else? I never meant to do anything wrong in here, so if you would kindly inform me on what I did wrong, I’d appreciate it. I jsut came here to get advice, some help, and maybe share a few things of myself with others. I’m a little hurt, now that I know what a troll is, and I dont really know how to react to this. I’m sorry for offending you, Steph. I jsut came here to get some help before I die. Shalom and God Bless, Gabby
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Then help me, steph. Or at lease tellme what I did which is so wrong. Please dont single me out like this with out telling me why. i would only be fair to you in this. shalom and godbless, gabby
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: Steph, : You have caught me off guard here. I am not sure what to make of this. Why : are you calling me a sicko troll? How does my posting an essay on here : offend you or anyone else? I never meant to do anything wrong in here, so : if : you would kindly inform me on what I did wrong, I’d appreciate it. I jsut : came here to get advice, some help, and maybe share a few things of myself : with others. I’m a little hurt, now that I know what a troll is, and I : dont : really know how to react to this. I’m sorry for offending you, Steph. I : jsut : came here to get some help before I die. : : Shalom and God Bless, : Gabby : : : :
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So you are just a sicko troll
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – My Testosterone-Laden Self from my weight lifting days I recently bench-pressed 300 pounds at the gym. This isn’t Earth-shattering, or anything – most gyms have a few guys who can top that handily. But still, it’s a personal best, and the "300-Club" is relatively hard to join. My euphoria over this milestone lasted for a few minutes until I realized that – in real life – it doesn’t matter at all. I work as a file manager in the Oncology ward at a hospital in Reykjavik. I can’t really imagine my boss coming in and saying, "Nice work on the report, Gabe. Oh, by the way, a large boulder has fallen in the waiting room. When you get the chance, do you mind pushing it out of the way? Thanks, I knew you were a team player." I’m 6′2". So, at first, working out served a practical purpose in that people are less likely to bother you if you look like a lightly shaven silverback. High school is a Darwinian experience. As I get older, though, the threat of actual physical violence doesn’t seem as ever-present. There aren’t any Office Bullies pushing me into filing cabinets or holding my face to the water cooler. Perhaps they’re in a meeting. Working out can be addictive, almost a reversed-anorexia. "Okay, I can pick up exactly X pounds in steel-bar form, maybe, I’ll try five pounds more next week. I am a man of brawn!" – that sort of thing. To be fair (fair to me, that is) society seems to have embraced the whole "bigger is better" concept in some ridiculous ways. Men’s shirts sizes pretty much start at "medium". Even if you’re 5′3 and weigh 130, chances are, you’re a medium. And, while there are big and tall stores in every city, I read recently that there are less than 10 stores IN THE ENTIRE U.S. that overtly cater to small men. There’s a huge stigma attached to being small, for men at least. For women, I think the opposite is true – and this leads to its own set of troubles. Ever hear of the Napoleon Complex? It’s the idea that short people overcompensate by being aggressive (you see, it’s fine to be tall and aggressive, but if you’re short and aggressive, you have a psychological problem). I think it’s a tall-person plot. I won’t even touch on the whole pickup truck/SUVs craze, except to say that the usefulness of these things is vastly overrated, except as alpha-male displays of status. How many people really NEED something that can tow 9,000 pounds or carry eight people? Are you running an orphanage in Northern Vermont? Okay then, my bad! If not, it seems silly to buy something that’s a menace to other drivers and gets 14 miles-to-the-gallon just for the two or three times a year you may want take a bunch of friends skiing or transport furniture. Should you need help loading the furniture, please note that I can bench 300. — Shalom and God Bless, Gabby
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My Testosterone-Laden Self from my weight lifting days I recently bench-pressed 300 pounds at the gym. This isn’t Earth-shattering, or anything – most gyms have a few guys who can top that handily. But still, it’s a personal best, and the "300-Club" is relatively hard to join. My euphoria over this milestone lasted for a few minutes until I realized that – in real life – it doesn’t matter at all. I work as a file manager in the Oncology ward at a hospital in Reykjavik. I can’t really imagine my boss coming in and saying, "Nice work on the report, Gabe. Oh, by the way, a large boulder has fallen in the waiting room. When you get the chance, do you mind pushing it out of the way? Thanks, I knew you were a team player." I’m 6′2". So, at first, working out served a practical purpose in that people are less likely to bother you if you look like a lightly shaven silverback. High school is a Darwinian experience. As I get older, though, the threat of actual physical violence doesn’t seem as ever-present. There aren’t any Office Bullies pushing me into filing cabinets or holding my face to the water cooler. Perhaps they’re in a meeting. Working out can be addictive, almost a reversed-anorexia. "Okay, I can pick up exactly X pounds in steel-bar form, maybe, I’ll try five pounds more next week. I am a man of brawn!" – that sort of thing. To be fair (fair to me, that is) society seems to have embraced the whole "bigger is better" concept in some ridiculous ways. Men’s shirts sizes pretty much start at "medium". Even if you’re 5′3 and weigh 130, chances are, you’re a medium. And, while there are big and tall stores in every city, I read recently that there are less than 10 stores IN THE ENTIRE U.S. that overtly cater to small men. There’s a huge stigma attached to being small, for men at least. For women, I think the opposite is true – and this leads to its own set of troubles. Ever hear of the Napoleon Complex? It’s the idea that short people overcompensate by being aggressive (you see, it’s fine to be tall and aggressive, but if you’re short and aggressive, you have a psychological problem). I think it’s a tall-person plot. I won’t even touch on the whole pickup truck/SUVs craze, except to say that the usefulness of these things is vastly overrated, except as alpha-male displays of status. How many people really NEED something that can tow 9,000 pounds or carry eight people? Are you running an orphanage in Northern Vermont? Okay then, my bad! If not, it seems silly to buy something that’s a menace to other drivers and gets 14 miles-to-the-gallon just for the two or three times a year you may want take a bunch of friends skiing or transport furniture. Should you need help loading the furniture, please note that I can bench 300. — Shalom and God Bless, Gabby
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Do you live in Iceland? New York? Kingston, Jamaica?
Add this one to the list: He is in fact posting from Dallas According to the headers he is posting from NNTP-Posting-Host: 67.30.37.63 [67.30.37.63] has valid reverse DNS of dialup-67.30.37.63.Dial1.Dallas1.Level3.net Jan
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: Does the movie Fight Club sound familiar? Kathy J : : If you’re saying that we seem like a bunch of idiots fighting for no reason, I totally agree with you. Thank you for pointing that out. gabby
Gabby, you are a lying, heartless, emotionally retarded troll getting your jollies from upsetting people with cancer. So piss off, and now.
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http://members.tripod.com/~ash52/members-list2.html
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Then help me, steph. Or at lease tellme what I did which is so wrong. Please dont single me out like this with out telling me why. i would only be fair to you in this. shalom and godbless, gabby What kind of cancer do you have, Gabby? Exactly what kind? What treatment have you had? Exactly? Do you live in Iceland? New York? Kingston, Jamaica? The internet has a long memory
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Does the movie Fight Club sound familiar? Kathy J
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: Does the movie Fight Club sound familiar? Kathy J : : If you’re saying that we seem like a bunch of idiots fighting for no reason, I totally agree with you. Thank you for pointing that out. gabby
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Steph, I live in NY. Just moved back from Iceland.
Well, that is consistent with a post elsewhere: Hey everybody! My name is Gabriel; call me Gabe, Gabby, G-man… anything you wanna. lol I’m 20 years old and I just had a really really bad accident to my spine this April. And it left me paralyzed about waist down. I’m still trying to cope; lots of depression and anxiety here… but I’ll rock on. I was deaf until 2 and a half years ago when I had surgery. I’m just looking for some one with whom I cant share my feelings and thoughts, preferably a female. PURELY A PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP!!!!!! I just want a buddy with maybe the same disability i now have. I appreciate all of youwho take the time to read this and i greatly thank those of you who respond. god bless. Location: Reykjavik, Iceland Posted: 9 July 2002
I do find the 300 lbs. bench press a stretch given the above, possible, but… I used to have jamaica on my profile because i just wanted to put it there.
Actually, Gabriel, you said you LIVED there… GABRIEL MY NAME IS GABRIEL. I AM A 17 YEAR OLD MALE FROM KINGSTON JAMAICA. I WANT TO CORRESPOND WITH ANOTHER WHEELCHAIR-BOUND PERSON.THIS HAS JUST RECENTLY HAPPENED TO ME AND I WANT TO HAVE SOME ONE TO TALK TO WHO KNOWS WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. I WOULD APPRECIATE ANY MALE OR FEMALE AROUND MY AGE OR SO.I ALSO LIKE MUSIC, BASKETBALL, AND GETTING TO KNOW NEW PEOPLE. Is that so wrong? can a person put another country on their profile? It was jsut a profile. And as for my treatments, I have had chemo and radiation. The cancer I have is a malignat melanoma that caused metastatic brain tumors. The melanoma was found in my lungs and it grew about my heart. Steph why are you singling me out and trying to make me feel inferior? Shalom and Godbless, gabby
Perhaps it is because, given the two posts above – you had to have had TWO separate incidents that put you in a wheelchair…at 20 in April of 2002…but you also said you were a wheelie at 17… Not to mention your posts on several teen groups – you are claiming to be 21 now; So, he is, rather, attempting to cut through all the rather obvious discrepancies to see just who is really posting… Care to clear this up? Paul
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Then help me, steph. Or at lease tellme what I did which is so wrong. Please dont single me out like this with out telling me why. i would only be fair to you in this. shalom and godbless, gabby
What kind of cancer do you have, Gabby? Exactly what kind? What treatment have you had? Exactly? Do you live in Iceland? New York? Kingston, Jamaica? The internet has a long memory
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Steph, I live in NY. Just moved back from Iceland. I used to have jamaica on my profile because i just wanted to put it there. Is that so wrong? can a person put another country on their profile? It was jsut a profile. And as for my treatments, I have had chemo and radiation. The cancer I have is a malignat melanoma that caused metastatic brain tumors. The melanoma was found in my lungs and it grew about my heart. Steph why are you singling me out and trying to make me feel inferior? Shalom and Godbless, gabby
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: Then help me, steph. Or at lease tellme what I did which is so wrong. : Please dont single me out like this with out telling me why. i would only : be : fair to you in this. : : shalom and godbless, : gabby : : : What kind of cancer do you have, Gabby? : Exactly what kind? : What treatment have you had? Exactly? : Do you live in Iceland? New York? Kingston, Jamaica? : : The internet has a long memory : :
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Then help me, steph. Or at lease tellme what I did which is so wrong. Please dont single me out like this with out telling me why. i would only be fair to you in this. shalom and godbless, gabby What kind of cancer do you have, Gabby? Exactly what kind? What treatment have you had? Exactly? Do you live in Iceland? New York? Kingston, Jamaica? The internet has a long memory
Oooops! Busted! *Very* nice pickup. There must be something to eatin’ them loonies at the breakfast table, Herr Doktor. And I hereby retract all those nasty things I’ve said about you in the past
. Lowkey – the only labrat known for tipping his hat….