Talk Cancer

Question:

gang, the first five weeks were a relatively easy, but suddenly i’m finding myself thinking about smoking all the time! i haven’t caved, and i won’t, but i had hoped that it would be easier now… i’m wrestling with the inner junkie constantly now, it seems. thinking things like "fuck it, if i die a couple of years ahead of schedule because of smoking, that’s not sooo bad, i could probably make it into my 70’s…" or "maybe it’s possible to just smoke 5 or 10 a day…" you guys know what i’m talking about, right? maybe i should put on two patches a day…. patrick One month, two weeks, two days, 12 hours, 32 minutes and 55 seconds. 890 cigarettes not smoked, saving $211.48. Life saved: 3 days, 2 hours, 10 minutes.

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Patrick, I think you know as well as most here do:  if you could do 5-10 smokes/day you wouldn’t be here.  But I can’t, and last I knew your body craved at least 10 a day. You have a great meter — keep up the hard work!

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – gang, the first five weeks were a relatively easy, but suddenly i’m finding myself thinking about smoking all the time! i haven’t caved, and i won’t, but i had hoped that it would be easier now… i’m wrestling with the inner junkie constantly now, it seems. thinking things like "fuck it, if i die a couple of years ahead of schedule because of smoking, that’s not sooo bad, i could probably make it into my 70’s…" or "maybe it’s possible to just smoke 5 or 10 a day…" you guys know what i’m talking about, right? maybe i should put on two patches a day…. patrick One month, two weeks, two days, 12 hours, 32 minutes and 55 seconds. 890 cigarettes not smoked, saving $211.48. Life saved: 3 days, 2 hours, 10 minutes.

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gang, the first five weeks were a relatively easy, but suddenly i’m finding myself thinking about smoking all the time! i haven’t caved, and i won’t, but i had hoped that it would be easier now…

The easier and the harder go hand in hand.  They just take turns and apparently today it is Harder’s turn in your neck of the woods.  But it will soon be Easier’s turn again (maybe even tomorrow) and the best news is that Easier wins out after a while and Harder gets no turn.  Well, maybe Harder will get a chance at a turn once or twice a year, but Harder hasn’t been granted a turn with me for at least a month now. Maybe even 6 weeks or more. i’m wrestling with the inner junkie constantly now, it seems. thinking things like "fuck it, if i die a couple of years ahead of schedule because of smoking, that’s not sooo bad, i could probably make it into my 70’s…" or "maybe it’s possible to just smoke 5 or 10 a day…" you guys know what i’m talking about, right? maybe i should put on two patches a day….

Junkie Thinking.  Pure and Simple. This is Harder’s way of trying to cheat at the game and steal Easier’s turn.  And if you let Harder have his way (via Junkie Thinking) then he may win the game and Easier won’t have another chance.   Let’s see, what should you do here, Patrick?  Decisions, decisions. This is really a lot more simple than a game of chess, isn’t it?  The winning moves are much more obvious.  So what will it be, Patrick?  Will you let Harder take the next move and jump your Easy?  Surely not!  You can win with Easy, easily.  It’s very obvious, from my perspective. patrick One month, two weeks, two days, 12 hours, 32 minutes and 55 seconds. 890 cigarettes not smoked, saving $211.48. Life saved: 3 days, 2 hours, 10 minutes.

Hang in there.  You’re making it. *hugs* —    BinnieBee – QOF+        %%      (—-)     ( __< )     ^^ ~~ ^^     ~f3as3~

Four months, two weeks, three days, 23 hours, 35 minutes and 53 seconds. 4139 cigarettes not smoked, saving $683.01. Life saved: 2 weeks, 8 hours, 55 minutes.

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Patrick,   Yes, your body is going to play all kinds of tricks on you to get you to try to smoke again. The nicodemon is not going to give up trying to convince you junkie thinking is the way to go. I think if we all knew we would only lose a year or two out of our lives, we may still be smoking.  Only problem with dying a couple years ahead of schedule is it’s usually 15-20 yrs ahead of schedule. My brother and sister both died of lung cancer at age 50 and had they not got lung cancer, I’m sure they would have survived another 20 yrs.  And if that’s not bad enough, you don’t "just die"…If you get lung cancer or emphysema bad or whatever smoking related illness, you are going to suffer big time, maybe have to go through radiation or chemotherapy and your body will waste away alittle at a time and be in so much pain, morphine will be your only way to live.  And if the emphysema gets to you before the lung cancer does, you will be gasping for every breath of your life.  Not even be able to eat or dress yourself because it will take too much energy and you don’t have the spare oxygen for it. And you will live like that for YEARS.  Not to mention the mental anguish you will put your family through.  Now think about all this Patrick…Is all that worth going back to smoking for?  You be the judge.  Please try to hang in there…It DOES get better. Eileen Three months, two days, 22 hours, 53 minutes and 19 seconds. 2788 cigarettes not smoked, saving $474.06. Life saved: 1 week, 2 days, 16 hours, 20 minutes. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – gang, the first five weeks were a relatively easy, but suddenly i’m finding myself thinking about smoking all the time! i haven’t caved, and i won’t, but i had hoped that it would be easier now… i’m wrestling with the inner junkie constantly now, it seems. thinking things like "fuck it, if i die a couple of years ahead of schedule because of smoking, that’s not sooo bad, i could probably make it into my 70’s…" or "maybe it’s possible to just smoke 5 or 10 a day…" you guys know what i’m talking about, right? maybe i should put on two patches a day…. patrick One month, two weeks, two days, 12 hours, 32 minutes and 55 seconds. 890 cigarettes not smoked, saving $211.48. Life saved: 3 days, 2 hours, 10 minutes.

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the first five weeks were a relatively easy, but suddenly i’m finding myself thinking about smoking all the time! i haven’t caved, and i won’t, but i had hoped that it would be easier now… i’m wrestling with the inner junkie constantly now, it seems. thinking things like "fuck it, if i die a couple of years ahead of schedule because of smoking, that’s not sooo bad, i could probably make it into my 70’s…" or "maybe it’s possible to just smoke 5 or 10 a day…" you guys know what i’m talking about, right? maybe i should put on two patches a day….

"whatever gets you through the night, it’s alright, it’s alright" just accept that things are a bit shitty again, it’s perfectly ok to feel like this, just go with it. bet these craves don’t last forever. bobf 2y

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the first five weeks were a relatively easy, but suddenly i’m finding myself thinking about smoking all the time! i haven’t caved, and i won’t, but i had hoped that it would be easier now…

You have come too damned far to turn back now.  Don’t smoke.  No matter what. i’m wrestling with the inner junkie constantly now, it seems. thinking things like "fuck it, if i die a couple of years ahead of schedule because of smoking, that’s not sooo bad, i could probably make it into my 70’s…" or "maybe it’s possible to just smoke 5 or 10 a day…"

Nope.  You know better than that.  If ya smoke one, you’ll smoke the whole pack. you guys know what i’m talking about, right? maybe i should put on two patches a day….

Oh yeah, I know what you’re saying.  Just Don’t Smoke. You’re allright Pat.  You are doing great and keep ranting and raving here on AS3. Joy Three months, one week, four days, 22 hours, 40 minutes and 9 seconds. 3058 cigarettes not smoked, saving $663.66. Life saved: 1 week, 3 days, 14 hours, 50 minutes.

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Thanks, everybody! Damn happy to be a non-smoker and lucky to have found this place for support. I now keep a picture of my grandmother on my desk-she died from emphysema three years ago, days before her first grandchild was born… She serves as a constant reminder that you can’t win with smokes in your pocket… I’m amazed at how ADDICTED I am to nicotine. It’s mind blowing that this shit-weed is legally sold. Anyway, today is another day and I’m glad I woke up this morning without stale cig taste in my mouth, I can breathe easily and my hair and hands don’t smell like shit. I’m in southern california and the sun is shining, not a cloud in the sky! Have a great day! Patrick One month, two weeks, two days, 22 hours, 8 minutes and 2 seconds. 898 cigarettes not smoked, saving $213.38. Life saved: 3 days, 2 hours, 50 minutes.

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – the first five weeks were a relatively easy, but suddenly i’m finding myself thinking about smoking all the time! i haven’t caved, and i won’t, but i had hoped that it would be easier now… You have come too damned far to turn back now.  Don’t smoke.  No matter what. i’m wrestling with the inner junkie constantly now, it seems. thinking things like "fuck it, if i die a couple of years ahead of schedule because of smoking, that’s not sooo bad, i could probably make it into my 70’s…" or "maybe it’s possible to just smoke 5 or 10 a day…" Nope.  You know better than that.  If ya smoke one, you’ll smoke the whole pack. you guys know what i’m talking about, right? maybe i should put on two patches a day…. Oh yeah, I know what you’re saying.  Just Don’t Smoke. You’re allright Pat.  You are doing great and keep ranting and raving here on AS3. Joy Three months, one week, four days, 22 hours, 40 minutes and 9 seconds. 3058 cigarettes not smoked, saving $663.66. Life saved: 1 week, 3 days, 14 hours, 50 minutes.

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This is not a setback!  It is a challenge.  Your nicodemon is starting to realize how serious you are about quitting.  He is flooding your head with ideas to try to get you to start up again.  You’ve got him running scared. what you’re made of! Keep on fighting Chris f3as3 Totally smoke-free for  Four months, one week, one day, 18 hours, 37 minutes and 17 seconds. 2575 stinky cigarettes not smoked, saving $450.71. Life saved: 1 week, 1 day, 22 hours, 35 minutes.& I intend to enjoy every minute of it!! – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – gang, the first five weeks were a relatively easy, but suddenly i’m finding myself thinking about smoking all the time! i haven’t caved, and i won’t, but i had hoped that it would be easier now… i’m wrestling with the inner junkie constantly now, it seems. thinking things like "fuck it, if i die a couple of years ahead of schedule because of smoking, that’s not sooo bad, i could probably make it into my 70’s…" or "maybe it’s possible to just smoke 5 or 10 a day…" you guys know what i’m talking about, right? maybe i should put on two patches a day…. patrick One month, two weeks, two days, 12 hours, 32 minutes and 55 seconds. 890 cigarettes not smoked, saving $211.48. Life saved: 3 days, 2 hours, 10 minutes.

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Am I the only one struggling to work this one out? Nicki One month, two weeks, four days, 1 hour, 0 minutes and 35 seconds. 736 cigarettes not smoked, saving