Talk Cancer

Question:

At least you’re singing! SuzieQ   ahem….  please regard meter! Four weeks, 11 hours, 51 minutes and 53 seconds. 569 cigarettes not smoked, saving 151,02 DM. Life saved: 1 day, 23 hours, 25 minutes.

Response:

Congratulations on FMD Tamera.  That really is super. I understand your junkie-in-your-head issues.  My junkie thinking was really the worst the first day, when my head kept telling me that I hadn’t really had a last cigarette…that I should/could have just one more, like just one real last cigarette.  It was pathetic, but maybe I did have a cathartic moment when I was able to recognize the thinking as the ‘nico-demon’ and tell it to fuck off.  I still have to tell it to fuck off every day. At the moment I’m chomping on a piece of gum.  Last night as I read and posted I was sucking on a lollipop.  It’s always just a matter of finding out what I’m going to stick in my mouth rather than a stinky smoke. Hang in there.  You know it will only get easier if you stay quit. Amber I’ve been a recovered smoker for one month, one week, two days, 21 hours, 21 minutes and 37 seconds. 797 cigarettes not smoked, saving $79.78. Life saved: 2 days, 18 hours, 25 minutes.

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – One month, 1 hour, 6 minutes and 59 seconds. 600 cigarettes not smoked, saving $92.54. Life saved: 2 days, 2 hours, 0 minutes. Now the bad: I have been having "wants". I cannot really call them cravings, not in the sense that I HAVE to have a cigarette right now. They’re more like Man o man I’d sure like a smoke right about now.

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Hence, now my silly little head is doing its best to convince me that I (ahem) Deserve that last smoke.

I *did* get to smoke that last one – several times ) – each time with resentment that I had to quit and fear that I wouldn’t be able to.  This stupid attitude just made things tougher than necessary for me.  However, as Cindy said, eventually it doesn’t matter.  Your quit is what matters. Dawn DOF — Outgoing mail is certified Virus Free. Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com).

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Thank you Jerry and everybody else for your wonderful support. I’m still being good… Tamera One month, 3 hours, 24 minutes and 27 seconds. 602 cigarettes not smoked, saving $92.84. Life saved: 2 days, 2 hours, 10 minutes.

Response:

One month, 1 hour, 6 minutes and 59 seconds. 600 cigarettes not smoked, saving $92.54. Life saved: 2 days, 2 hours, 0 minutes.

You made it baby!  One month down, one life to live!!!!  Isn’t it fantastic??  I’ll bet you never thought you could do it.  I know you had some pretty serious stuff going on which made you quit but actually, the only important thing at this point is THAT you quit. Now about your "issue".  I actually had something similar on Christmas Eve.  We had friends over that smoke.  We’ve seen them several times since we’ve quit but exactly on Christmas Eve, for the very first time since quitting, I got the feeling I HAD TO smoke.  My friends would’ve let me…  hell, they’d have probably been glad if I had.  Then they wouldn’t have to feel so guilty all the time about smoking.  My boyfriend just looked at me as if I were completely out of my mind and dismissed my "urges" as if I had said I wanted to mainline heroin and then rob the Mirage Casino.  After about 3 minutes of REALLY wanting to smoke, I came back to my senses (so to speak) and realized what a waste of time the last month would have been if I did break down and smoke a cigarette. I can’t really offer anyone anything wise in the way of advice…  I can only tell you what works for me.  Think about the time you’ve already invested.  As I said in another post — you and I are sort of quit sisters… I also have about a month down now.  What a waste of time that month would be if we were to start again now?  Wouldn’t that be TOTALLY stupid?  We are STRONGER than the urges!!! Hang in there Sweetie!  Your Quit Sister is right there beside ya! SuzieQ Three weeks, six days, 21 hours, 6 minutes and 47 seconds. 557 cigarettes not smoked, saving 147,76 DM. Life saved: 1 day, 22 hours, 25 minutes.

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You made it baby!

That’s just a little too close to "You’ve come a long way baby" (Virginia Slims), for comfort. One month down, one life to live!!!!

One day at a time, "All My Children"!! Isn’t it fantastic??

Isn’t that a show tune? Just funnin’ ya, Suzie. Good words, good intentions, kind sentiment – you got it all, babe. KUTGW! -hi-

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One month, 1 hour, 6 minutes and 59 seconds. 600 cigarettes not smoked, saving $92.54. Life saved: 2 days, 2 hours, 0 minutes.

Way to go! Most sincere congrats! You are walking the walk. You recognize the addiction for what it is! You are getting healthy already! It gets easier and easier; it gets better! You **deserve** fresh air, health, peace, freedom  and happiness. You do not **deserve** lung cancer, mouth cancer, sticking aroma, yellow fingers, snot, huge expense, etc. Tell the addiction to just shut up. Tell the addiction it must leave. Make room for the new, clean smober you. MikeG in Philly, TOF

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Hey Tamera HaPpY DaNcInG on your Month!! i dont think your bad news is actually *bad*…. you recognise they are not cravings …not a need…. therefore you are going forward in your quit with attitude and acceptance…. now thats cant be bad news can it? I truly believe we can *think* too much about quittin’ as for the pain but i think of it like having toothache …how can you describe the pain…do we really want to remember the pain and if we do…would it make a blind bit of notice ? ) Your doing well ….hats off to ya Miss Maggie

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – One month, 1 hour, 6 minutes and 59 seconds. 600 cigarettes not smoked, saving $92.54. Life saved: 2 days, 2 hours, 0 minutes. Now the bad: I have been having "wants". I cannot really call them cravings, not in the sense that I HAVE to have a cigarette right now. They’re more like Man o man I’d sure like a smoke right about now. My silly little head (what a wonderful device of amusement, but it has been known to cause trouble from time to time) is reminding me that I was hoodwinked out of that "last cigarette" that we all smoke before we quit. For those of you who don’t know my circumstances, my Quit began when my lung collapsed and I was rushed to the ER and admitted for a tortuous number of days, surgically fixed and sent home in mind-boggling pain. Hence, now my silly little head is doing its best to convince me that I (ahem) Deserve that last smoke. Of course I realize that this don’t make a lick of sense, but I’m just relaying it as I see it taking place in my head. The thing that has got me so worried is that I’m healing up (finally), and if I know me, I’ll forget just how much it hurt to go through my little adventure. I’m afraid I will blow my quit because I’ve forgotten how much pain I’ve been in. I don’t like pain. I am a wimp. Boy I could go for a smoke but I know better. Tamera

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One month, 1 hour, 6 minutes and 59 seconds. 600 cigarettes not smoked, saving $92.54. Life saved: 2 days, 2 hours, 0 minutes.

Wooooohooooooooo WTG GIRL just look at that shiny *M* sparkle   _o/          __|       /        |__             o     *o/*    |     __o     o     |       o/       o/_     /|      |   / )   /) |      (   /o     / )      /  <(    / |     /  padders is doing cartwheels and shaking her pompoms for ya! just remember, all those issues are all junkie thinking, hang tuff Tamera you’re doing great. hugs padders (