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OT:Bonus Question of the day…. 09/04/07

admin — Wed, 05 Sep 2007 00:00:00 +0000

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Everyone wears a hat here in the winter.. I dislike them, and can never find one that looks good on me – but when it’s in the single digits with high winds – I don’t really care what I look like… Anything to keep warm. Bet you look cute in a hat. Chip :^) If by "cute" you mean weird, then I’m cute as hell. In a bag lady sort of way. No matter what hat I put on, I look homeless.. and even moreso when I go inside and have hat hair. Real bad. beats frostbitten ears, though.

I’ve seen pics of you, Sally. On the asap-m photo gallery. You’re a very attractive mature woman. Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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::Do you wear hats? Never! Jackie ~*~When you find yourself the victim of other people’s bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; remember, things could be worse. You could be them~*~ — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats?

I was into baseball type hats/caps for a while but not so much lately unless it’s raining. I sometimes wear a do rag or a bandanna. My Mother and others say I look like a biker when I wear them. LOL! Tony — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – 09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? When everyone is depressed I do it tends to make them laugh so loud the depression is gone LOL. Good one, Ms. Anna. Chip

And true I look like the village idiot with any hat hehehe — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? I’m a baseball hat junkie. True story. I sleep in them, even.

Must be uncomfortable. Reminds me of the time my brother went to bed in his ice hockey uniform so he wouldn’t have to put it on the following morning before practice. Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats?

husband, cat owner, (smart ass?)… — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Everyone wears a hat here in the winter.. I dislike them, and can never find one that looks good on me – but when it’s in the single digits with high winds – I don’t really care what I look like… Anything to keep warm. Bet you look cute in a hat. Chip :^)

If by "cute" you mean weird, then I’m cute as hell. In a bag lady sort of way. No matter what hat I put on, I look homeless.. and even moreso when I go inside and have hat hair. Real bad. beats frostbitten ears, though. Sally — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Do you wear hats?

Yes, I sometimes wear a broad-brimmed straw hat, because I’m pretty bald and have to keep from becoming sumburned on top. :-( Dennis — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats?

I’m famous, or possibly infamous, for my hat. My daughter brought a new friend home from high school, who turned out to live only half a dozen blocks from us. (Unusual, because we’re well outside the normal zone for that school.) When I got home, and walked in, she looked up and said, "Oh my god, it’s the hat man!" She and her father had been talking about, "That guy who walks past in the hat" for years. — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi, Phillip. LOL! Guess you had to be someone’s dad…

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – 09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? I’m famous, or possibly infamous, for my hat. My daughter brought a new friend home from high school, who turned out to live only half a dozen blocks from us. (Unusual, because we’re well outside the normal zone for that school.) When I got home, and walked in, she looked up and said, "Oh my god, it’s the hat man!" She and her father had been talking about, "That guy who walks past in the hat" for years. — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – 09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? I’m a baseball hat junkie. True story. I sleep in them, even. Must be uncomfortable. Reminds me of the time my brother went to bed in his ice hockey uniform so he wouldn’t have to put it on the following morning before practice. Chip

LOL about your brother, Chip. :~) Actually, I like to sleep in baseball hats because it keeps my wisps of hair from tickling and itching my face. I always sleep with a fan on me or my nose gets all stuffed up and I’ve got long hair. Naturally my hair brushes my face and sometimes I will scratch my face or neck open in my sleep. Other times, without a hat, I just can’t sleep and then I get an onset of anxiety. I’ll take the hat, please! :~) kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? Jackie ~*~~*~When you find yourself the victim of other people’s bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; remember, things could be worse. You could be them~*~ — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats?

No. Mary — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I wear warm hats in the Winter. Di

09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? Jackie

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I wear warm hats in the Winter.

You’ve reminded me. I wear hats in the winter some of the time. Mary – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – 09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? Jackie — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? Jackie

no hats for me – i try to keep a cool head — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Only in the winter when it’s extremely cold or snowing away. smiles, Elise

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – 09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? Jackie ~*~~*~When you find yourself the victim of other people’s bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; remember, things could be worse. You could be them~*~ — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? No hats for me. They mess up what hair I have left Simon

Ha, wait until I start chemo. We’ll have a daily hair-count contest!!!! :~) kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats?

I’m a baseball hat junkie. True story. I sleep in them, even. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats?

When everyone is depressed I do it tends to make them laugh so loud the depression is gone — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats?

I have to. Medications taken over the years have made my skin more sensitive to the sun’s rays. — Ron P Member of the invisible generation — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats?

Never used to. But now wear a baseball hat in the sun so I don’t get skin cancer on top of my bald head. Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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09/04/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster Do you wear hats? When everyone is depressed I do it tends to make them laugh so loud the depression is gone

LOL. Good one, Ms. Anna. Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Bet you look cute in a hat. Chip :^) — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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OT:Bonus Question of the day…. 08/31/07

admin — Fri, 31 Aug 2007 00:00:00 +0000

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:: With any luck, pending cancer treatment, ::I’ll be there in a couple of months. ((((((((((Kili)))))))))) Jackie ~*~~*~When you find yourself the victim of other people’s bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; remember, things could be worse. You could be them~*~ — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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kilikini schreef: 08/31/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go? Back to Hawaii. I miss my island. With any luck, pending cancer treatment, I’ll be there in a couple of months. Yeah, well, that’s if my friends can pay for it. kili

Well, hellooooooo! Good to see your name on my screen. I understand that you will have an appointment next Monday (?) to have the tumor that returned treated. I wish you lots and lots of strength and good luck. Hopefully this time they will have the thing licked forever (is this English?) Philip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – kilikini schreef: 08/31/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go? Back to Hawaii. I miss my island. With any luck, pending cancer treatment, I’ll be there in a couple of months. Yeah, well, that’s if my friends can pay for it. kili Well, hellooooooo! Good to see your name on my screen. I understand that you will have an appointment next Monday (?) to have the tumor that returned treated. I wish you lots and lots of strength and good luck. Hopefully this time they will have the thing licked forever (is this English?) Philip

Yes, it’s English. :~) And very good English, too! Yes, my appointment is next Monday. Wish me luck! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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kilikini schreef: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – kilikini schreef: 08/31/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go? Back to Hawaii. I miss my island. With any luck, pending cancer treatment, I’ll be there in a couple of months. Yeah, well, that’s if my friends can pay for it. kili Well, hellooooooo! Good to see your name on my screen. I understand that you will have an appointment next Monday (?) to have the tumor that returned treated. I wish you lots and lots of strength and good luck. Hopefully this time they will have the thing licked forever (is this English?) Philip Yes, it’s English. :~) And very good English, too! Yes, my appointment is next Monday. Wish me luck! kili

Oh, I do, I do, you can count on that. And please keep us posted. I know everyone here is rooting for you. Philip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I wish you the very best, Kili. Please let us know how it went. {{{{{Kili}}}}} Love, Di — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I will, thanks, Di. My brother’s coming down for my appt. and before everyone jumps and says "great!", let me tell you that he’s not all there. I haven’t seen him in a few years, but my mom and my sister warned me that he’s not quite right. I’m hoping that my husband and my brother don’t kill each other. So, in addition to my appointment, I have this to worry about too. Yay. It’s going to be an interesting week, let me tell ya. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – kilikini schreef: 08/31/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go? Back to Hawaii. I miss my island. With any luck, pending cancer treatment, I’ll be there in a couple of months. Yeah, well, that’s if my friends can pay for it. kili Well, hellooooooo! Good to see your name on my screen. I understand that you will have an appointment next Monday (?) to have the tumor that returned treated. I wish you lots and lots of strength and good luck. Hopefully this time they will have the thing licked forever (is this English?) Philip Yes, it’s English. :~) And very good English, too! Yes, my appointment is next Monday. Wish me luck! kili I wish you the very best, Kili. Please let us know how it went. {{{{{Kili}}}}} Love, Di I will, thanks, Di. My brother’s coming down for my appt. and before everyone jumps and says "great!", let me tell you that he’s not all there. I haven’t seen him in a few years, but my mom and my sister warned me that he’s not quite right. I’m hoping that my husband and my brother don’t kill each other. So, in addition to my appointment, I have this to worry about too. Yay. It’s going to be an interesting week, let me tell ya. kili

Oh that’s such a shame, Kili. I hope everything works out okay. You poor thing! {{{{{Kili}}}}} Love, Di — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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08/31/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go? Jackie ~*~Sit and daydream, and watch the changing color of the waves that break upon the idle seashore of the mind~*~ ~~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hawaii! Di

08/31/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go? Jackie

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08/31/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go? Jackie

anywhere with snow and beautiful scenery. it’s too long since i’ve seen some wonderful snow. — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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08/31/07: snip: If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go?

Turtle Island, Fig. = a tropical resort with white sand beaches where they pamper the heck out of you with full spa treatment, exotic foods and drinks and swimming pool overlooking the ocean. Man, can I dream or what? LOL — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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08/31/07: Today’s question is being brought to you by our very own mystery poster If you were given a free one week vacation to a place of your choice, where would you choose to go?

Back to Hawaii. I miss my island. With any luck, pending cancer treatment, I’ll be there in a couple of months. Yeah, well, that’s if my friends can pay for it. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Depression

admin — Thu, 10 May 2007 00:00:00 +0000

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Hi David. Sorry you’re not feeling great atm. I’m not too knowledgeable on depression, so I can’t offer any useful advice, just to say that I hope you feel better soon and that we’re here to listen if you want to vent. Take care. All the best from Steve.

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – is crushing me. I feel like I’m under a million tons of rock. Wednesday I go to the hospital for a colonoscopy. It’s a simple, yet uncomfortable procedure. Tomorrow I go through the "clean out" procedure, which consists not eating anything and taking enough laxative to put me in the bathroom all day. (I know, too much information) I’m not scared of the procedure. It’s just uncomfortable and the likelihood of them finding anything wrong is low. We’re just doing it to make sure. My Dad had cancerous polyps removed from his colon and it’s hereditary, so we’re just making sure. My step mom will take me and then come and get me when it’s over, since I can’t drive myself. But all day tomorrow and for the procedure itself, I’ll be alone. And there’s that word again. Alone. I don’t know what to do anymore. David — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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David, I’m so sorry about the depression and your loneliness. :-( Do you have any plans to get out and do some RL things with others? I know this is difficult when you’re depressed. It becomes a vicious cycle. The colonoscopy: as you yourself have said, it’s a quick and relatively painless procedure. You say it’s "uncomfortable" — does the GI doctor not knock you out with Valium or other sedative through an IV first? I resisted getting heavily sedated that way (I have a phobia of anesthesia) until the scope went in and then, by God, I yelped for the meds! I was out like a light for the (short) duration of the procedure from then on, and it was a snap. Ask for extra sedation. I’m sure you’ll get through this just fine. Glad your stepmom will be taking you there and picking you up for the drive home. Thinking of you… (((((((David))))))) xxoo Anne — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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((((((((((David)))))))))))))))))) I know this test well, so I know how you’re feeling today with the joy of ‘evacuation’ Honey, you’re not alone…you have all of us to keep you company :-) I’m sure that’s not a comfort, because you want a real life person. Try to trust in the fact that your day will come, and when it does, you are more than ready. I hope the test goes well, and that they find nothing cancerous. You’re in my thoughts and I hope if nothing else…I can bring you a smile Love and hugs, Gigglz

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It’s not that I really want someone there for the procedure itself. Hell, I don’t even want to be there for it.

LOL But, going in, getting the IV, getting knocked out. Then waking up. It’s nice if there is at least someone you know there for that kind of stuff.

I was all alone for this stuff. My husband dropped me off at 8 a.m. They really didn’t allow people to wait with you at the facility I went to. We were all lined up on gurneys, wearing our johnnies and waiting our turns in the small OR where the colonoscopies are done. I woke up in my own little recovery cubicle (curtained area) with a nurse handing me a ginger ale and some saltines. It was really OK. Once the sedative is in your veins, you get kind of a happy-go-lucky mood going and breeze through it all! xxoo Anne — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Dear David, I`m sorry you are in the grips of depression. There`s a lot going on in your life the last few weeks….feelings for an old love, looking for a job and now having to go in for a invasive medical test. No wonder you feel depressed and alone. These are times I wished I lived closer to people at ASAPM…….because I would gladly spend the day with you tomorrow as to be in my thoughts tomorrow and Thursday. We will be here if you need us…..don`t ever forget that. {{{{{David}}}}}

Jackie, I want to thank you for this especially. It really meant something that you would want to be here for me. I feel the same way, often, about the people on this group. If I were a rich man, I wouldn’t be home very often. I have mostly survived the first phase, the cleanout procedure. At this point I’m mainly hungry, and can’t have anything but clear liquids, chicken broth or jello. And I forgot to buy any jello. The actual procedure is tomorrow, not Thursday, so that’s when you should be thinking about me. (OK, for you people in earlier time zones, it’s already tomorrow. But it’s Tuesday evening here.) I’m a little anxious about it, but I know they will more or less drug me out. I don’t particularly like feeling out of control, though, like these drugs make you feel sometimes. Of course, I have to remember to ask them what they are going to use, and make sure it isn’t Valium, because I can’t have that. And make sure they understand my sleep apnea, so if I go far enough under I don’t stop breathing. I’m going in at 8:00 AM and should be in for not more than four hours. I don’t know how rummy I’ll be afterwards, but I’ll try to get here as soon as I can and post, so you’ll all know. Who knows, good drugs might make for an interesting post. Thank you all for thinking of me. David — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Take care, David…. and do let us know how you are as soon as you can! And remember, we will all be with you in spirit and thought….. 8 AM Pacific time….. that’s 11 AM East coast time…. and 5 PM for Philip over in The Netherlands. I’m not even goint to attempt to figure out what time that will be for our friends down under!

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So sorry your depression is getting the best of you, David. {{{{{David}}}}} I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow. I wish you the very best, and calming vibes too. Di

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Hang in there, David. Chip

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:is crushing me. I feel like I’m under a million tons of rock. :My step mom will take me and then come and get me when it’s over, since I :can’t drive myself. But all day tomorrow and for the procedure itself, I’ll :be alone. : :And there’s that word again. Alone. I don’t know what to do anymore. Dear David, I`m sorry you are in the grips of depression. There`s a lot going on in your life the last few weeks….feelings for an old love, looking for a job and now having to go in for a invasive medical test. No wonder you feel depressed and alone. These are times I wished I lived closer to people at ASAPM…….because I would gladly spend the day with you tomorrow as to be in my thoughts tomorrow and Thursday. We will be here if you need us…..don`t ever forget that. {{{{{David}}}}} Jackie ~*~Faith is believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe~*~ ~ Voltaire ~ — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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is crushing me. I feel like I’m under a million tons of rock.

David, I wish I could say something to make it all better. And I’m so forgetful that I have no idea if you are on any depression meds or what it might be if you are. Just in case it applies, don’t forget I tried darn near every drug made in the past ten (?) years and nothing helped, until I went on an old trycyclic (pamelor). Who knows? Maybe it’s worth a shot? My step mom will take me and then come and get me when it’s over, since I can’t drive myself. But all day tomorrow and for the procedure itself, I’ll be alone.

I don’t think I’d WANT someone I know with me during that procedure. :~/ Squirming in my seat, Tono — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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is crushing me. I feel like I’m under a million tons of rock. David, I wish I could say something to make it all better. And I’m so forgetful that I have no idea if you are on any depression meds or what it might be if you are. Just in case it applies, don’t forget I tried darn near every drug made in the past ten (?) years and nothing helped, until I went on an old trycyclic (pamelor). Who knows? Maybe it’s worth a shot?

That’s what I’m taking. It was working great, but the situation is getting me down, I guess. My step mom will take me and then come and get me when it’s over, since I can’t drive myself. But all day tomorrow and for the procedure itself, I’ll be alone. I don’t think I’d WANT someone I know with me during that procedure. :~/

It’s not that I really want someone there for the procedure itself. Hell, I don’t even want to be there for it. But, going in, getting the IV, getting knocked out. Then waking up. It’s nice if there is at least someone you know there for that kind of stuff. — David Chamberlain – ASAPM Moderator | Support for anxiety or panic disorders. Check us out! | | alt.support.anxiety-panic.moderated http://stump.algebra.com/~asapm | There is seldom reason or sense involved in these matters of love — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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David, These rocks will tumble in another direction one by one in time. Your loneliness will ease and you will find yourself in a different place in life emotionally. Wishing you much success with the colonoscopy. I have done similar tests and the prep is always the worst part. You’re not alone..just a bit lonely and still getting over your feelings for your former GF. This too shall pass in time. smiles, Elise

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Thank you, Mike. Just, thank you. I can’t think of any better words. David — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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1 AM AEST love Meryl — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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? There is this difference between being alone and being lonely. The curse and bane of being socially phobic is that one isolates from others-wouldn’t it be a hoot if you met someone in recovery who was real interesting. I have found people meet other people when least expecting it and not looking for it.

So true. I met a great person with SP through accident, or was it a merylism love Meryl — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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David, I wish I could say or do something to make you feel better. I know you are in so much pain with this depression. I am here if you need me, ok? Love, Vicki — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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is crushing me. I feel like I’m under a million tons of rock. Wednesday I go to the hospital for a colonoscopy. It’s a simple, yet uncomfortable procedure. Tomorrow I go through the "clean out" procedure, which consists not eating anything and taking enough laxative to put me in the bathroom all day. (I know, too much information) I’m not scared of the procedure. It’s just uncomfortable and the likelihood of them finding anything wrong is low. We’re just doing it to make sure. My Dad had cancerous polyps removed from his colon and it’s hereditary, so we’re just making sure. My step mom will take me and then come and get me when it’s over, since I can’t drive myself. But all day tomorrow and for the procedure itself, I’ll be alone. And there’s that word again. Alone. I don’t know what to do anymore. David — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Now David, who would you want to be with while having a garden hose shoved up your bucket? There is this difference between being alone and being lonely. The curse and bane of being socially phobic is that one isolates from others-wouldn’t it be a hoot if you met someone in recovery who was real interesting. I have found people meet other people when least expecting it and not looking for it. If you see any social situation, even one at the house of rectal probing as a possible social opportunity rather then a morbid place of solitude, you may surprise yourself. There is nothing to do anymore? Then do nothing, but do it without condition best luck with the procedure LM David

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| is crushing me. I feel like I’m under a million tons of rock. | | Wednesday I go to the hospital for a colonoscopy. It’s a simple, yet | uncomfortable procedure. Tomorrow I go through the "clean out" | procedure, which consists not eating anything and taking enough | laxative to put me in the bathroom all day. (I know, too much | information) | | I’m not scared of the procedure. It’s just uncomfortable and the | likelihood of them finding anything wrong is low. We’re just doing it | to make sure. My Dad had cancerous polyps removed from his colon and | it’s hereditary, so we’re just making sure. | | My step mom will take me and then come and get me when it’s over, | since I can’t drive myself. But all day tomorrow and for the | procedure itself, I’ll be alone. | | And there’s that word again. Alone. I don’t know what to do anymore. | | David I cant say that I honestly "Feel your pain" but (no pun intended) my bro, sis and dad have all had pre cancerous polyps removed. My doc tells me I have to start having the procedure at 50. I am 40 now and with the family history I dont think I should wait 10 years. As it is I have surgery scheduled in november for a complete hysterectomy due to LOTS of bleeding …. bad enough to need 2 units of blood a few weeks ago. Dr suspects a polyp in my uterus. As for the depression, I can feel ya there.. I get depressed all the time. Up and down .. viscious cycle…Merry go round… Im never "alone" as I live with my husband and kids…dogs and cats..but I can get loney too…thats something we all go though at times. Feeling alone when you dont want to be alone can be scary….along with a litney of other descriptions of how it can feel. I suppose some like it.. I dont personally. Before I found others like me, I felt like I was the only person with problems in existance. Then I found all of you guys and some of my family members as well.. My mother for example.. kept it hidden for years. When I was diagnosed she opened up to me. My son was diagnosed a couple of weeks ago. He is 15 and on Prozac. I hope by treating him so young he will be "ok" as an adult. As for your test.. they do give you something to put you "Semi" out. Once you get back home you will want to do nothing but sleep anyway… so as for being alone after the procedure, I just dont think you will mind much Take care Stacy — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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[gentle snip] And there’s that word again. Alone. I don’t know what to do anymore. David

"I don’t know what to do anymore." Ahhhhhhhhhhh I see ! "Do" is the word that isn’t in place dear David. Sometimes we find ourselves on a spot where there is nothing more to "Do" for a while. Try settling with the idea of being alone. I can promiss you it won’t be forever ! Pick up the things you enjoy doing and do them alone. First we have to be our own best friend. Come to this group and share if you want. We are most definitly your friends,tho I see we are not *there* in person,we are there in spirit. In time when you settle with yourself things will change step by step. You can take me on my word dear friend Much strength in the hospital and much love and a kiss on ya nose from Anna — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I went though many of these procedure myself, and they are uncomfortable. colon cancer run in my family also, my dad was treated for it last year. we share many of the same thing and I praying things goes well for you the feeling of being alone orginates within you, somehow you need to accept that it’s ok to be alone, even in my marriage I had to do this or I find myself unhealthly attached to my wife. at the same time you realize you need someone in your life to share it with and as you live your life you will fullfill this need also jim

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Hey David, I have colonoscopies every 3 years because of genetics. I was very apprehensive the first time but all was fine. I was unaware of the procedure. I made it clear that I wanted heavy sedation. You may be alone physically but you know that you have many friends here. I don’t care what some may say, I believe these online friendships are as true as RL. Keep posting and communicating David. My depression has resurfaced. I know it is important that I resist the temptation to withdraw. love Meryl — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – | is crushing me. I feel like I’m under a million tons of rock. | | Wednesday I go to the hospital for a colonoscopy. It’s a simple, yet | uncomfortable procedure. Tomorrow I go through the "clean out" | procedure, which consists not eating anything and taking enough | laxative to put me in the bathroom all day. (I know, too much | information) | | I’m not scared of the procedure. It’s just uncomfortable and the | likelihood of them finding anything wrong is low. We’re just doing it | to make sure. My Dad had cancerous polyps removed from his colon and | it’s hereditary, so we’re just making sure. | | My step mom will take me and then come and get me when it’s over, | since I can’t drive myself. But all day tomorrow and for the | procedure itself, I’ll be alone. | | And there’s that word again. Alone. I don’t know what to do anymore. | | David I cant say that I honestly "Feel your pain" but (no pun intended) my bro, sis and dad have all had pre cancerous polyps removed. My doc tells me I have to start having the procedure at 50.

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I don’t exactly know what is going on in my life. A lot of the depression revolves around work rehabilitation, but not all of it. The problem with work is that I probably won’t be eligible for the free schooling. Then again, I know going to school full time is way more than I can’t handle anyway. They don’t seem to send people to a more "simple" Technical school, they either go for a degree or help find you a minimum wage job. Nothing in between. Some of the people I work with/for are trying to help in different ways. My Mom is visiting and I just had an appointment with my counselor. I took a depression test and scored a 28 out of 30. It’s strange but sometimes I feel great, then the depression hits again. I’ve been feeling the need to go to a hospital and I think my counselor would love to see me go for better help. My Mom happened to be with me to do some shopping and my counselor asked if we should have my Mom come in. At first I said no. I ended up having my mom go talk to her while I waited out in the car. So this is the most info. my mom has received from anyone besides me. So now Mom is also saying it would be a good time to go get better help, at least she can take care of the dog. Oops I forgot to feed the fish. I have no idea what the near future holds for me. For now I’m here at home. I was so far behind in the posts that I had to delete them all. Hope everyone is doing well. Tony — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -I don’t exactly know what is going on in my life. A lot of the depression revolves around work rehabilitation, but not all of it. The problem with work is that I probably won’t be eligible for the free schooling. Then again, I know going to school full time is way more than I can’t handle anyway. They don’t seem to send people to a more "simple" Technical school, they either go for a degree or help find you a minimum wage job. Nothing in between. Some of the people I work with/for are trying to help in different ways. My Mom is visiting and I just had an appointment with my counselor. I took a depression test and scored a 28 out of 30. It’s strange but sometimes I feel great, then the depression hits again. I’ve been feeling the need to go to a hospital and I think my counselor would love to see me go for better help. My Mom happened to be with me to do some shopping and my counselor asked if we should have my Mom come in. At first I said no. I ended up having my mom go talk to her while I waited out in the car. So this is the most info. my mom has received from anyone besides me. So now Mom is also saying it would be a good time to go get better help, at least she can take care of the dog. Oops I forgot to feed the fish. I have no idea what the near future holds for me. For now I’m here at home. I was so far behind in the posts that I had to delete them all. Hope everyone is doing well. Tony

I don’t know what you have in the U.S.A. but up here our colleges are trades oriented and they issue certificates, and universities are geared to the professions, arts and sciences and they issue degrees. Both of these types of institutions offer online courses. Do you have the equivalent available to you. Perhaps taking a course or two online might be suitable for you if they are available and affordable. — Ron P Member of the invisible generation — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi, Tono, Wishing you brighter days ahead. Vent all you need to. We are here for you. smiles, Elise

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi, Tono, "I have no idea what the near future holds for me" – Who does. We have good days, bad days and so-so days. Part of the reason for one day at a time. I’m glad your mother is with you right now. I hope you are comfortable with her having talked with your counselor. Yes… sort of. The bad part is that she will worry too much. I think it was a wise decision. She’s been informed of how you are feeling and can be there for you if you need help. Could you possibly be more concerned about what your mother would think if you needed to go to the hospital? No, she knows I went before, and I know she has also gone for similar reasons. Some times it’s the right thing to do but only you can make that decision. I know you are disappointed about the work situation and not getting the other job. Something else will come along. We have to be patient. It’s difficult a lot of the time but we can get through the wait. I’ve noticed that when you return from your trips you seem to get down, fatigued. Do you think between the driving and visiting that when you come back you are more exhausted and worn out than you may realize? I don’t know, but my last trip was almost 2 months ago when Simone was born. Do you see your counselor soon? I did today. This opened up a whole new can of worms letting the counselor talk to my Mother. Sounds like you need to see her a little more often right now to get through this rough patch. Once a week. I can’t ask for more because she doesn’t even make me pay my $20 co pay. Unfortunately that will change soon when she quits her job at the hospital and depends full time on what was her side job. I think an emergency call to my Dr is in line, but he quits at noon on Fridays. Maybe he can call in a different anti depressant? Thanks, Tono — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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{{{{{{{Tony}}}}}}} It was nice that she talked with your Mom. Do whatever you need to do for yourself, Tony. We’re right behind you. I hope this depression passes quickly for you. Let us know what you’re gonna do. Di

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Yes… sort of. The bad part is that she will worry too much. I think it was a wise decision. She’s been informed of how you are feeling and can be there for you if you need help. Could you possibly be more concerned about what your mother would think if you needed to go to the hospital?

No, she knows I went before, and I know she has also gone for similar reasons. Some times it’s the right thing to do but only you can make that decision. I know you are disappointed about the work situation and not getting the other job. Something else will come along. We have to be patient. It’s difficult a lot of the time but we can get through the wait. I’ve noticed that when you return from your trips you seem to get down, fatigued. Do you think between the driving and visiting that when you come back you are more exhausted and worn out than you may realize?

I don’t know, but my last trip was almost 2 months ago when Simone was born. Do you see your counselor soon?

I did today. This opened up a whole new can of worms letting the counselor talk to my Mother. Sounds like you need to see her a little more often right now to get through this rough patch.

Once a week. I can’t ask for more because she doesn’t even make me pay my $20 co pay. Unfortunately that will change soon when she quits her job at the hospital and depends full time on what was her side job. I think an emergency call to my Dr is in line, but he quits at noon on Fridays. Maybe he can call in a different anti depressant? Thanks, Tono — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi, Tono, "I have no idea what the near future holds for me" – Who does. We have good days, bad days and so-so days. Part of the reason for one day at a time. I’m glad your mother is with you right now. I hope you are comfortable with her having talked with your counselor. I think it was a wise decision. She’s been informed of how you are feeling and can be there for you if you need help. Could you possibly be more concerned about what your mother would think if you needed to go to the hospital? Some times it’s the right thing to do but only you can make that decision. I know you are disappointed about the work situation and not getting the other job. Something else will come along. We have to be patient. It’s difficult a lot of the time but we can get through the wait. I’ve noticed that when you return from your trips you seem to get down, fatigued. Do you think between the driving and visiting that when you come back you are more exhausted and worn out than you may realize? Do you see your counselor soon? Sounds like you need to see her a little more often right now to get through this rough patch. ((((((Tono)))))) smiles, Elise

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Pissed off!!

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Hi Ron, Some enterprising Americans could buy meds in bulk, and sell them to consumers at a much lower cost And if there were several organizations doing this they’d compete. And competition would bring the price down even further. Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi, Mike, I understand your aggravation. You attempted to help yourself by calling the insurance company. ""No, no, no… we are not going to let you go without your medication" – What the hell is that about!!! As I understand it, your doctor is responsible for you and the meds he prescribes. Best wishes, Mike. This will work out… smiles, Elise

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Same with dental insurance. They only pay 50% for a crown and dental work which cost more than fillings, etc. I need to get a crown and it will cost $700.00 and I will pay half, plus the same tooth was filled a couple of months ago and it was $200.00 for the filling which I had to pay half, so I will pay almost $450.00 and insurance rates they pay dentists are based on last years dental scales. Too bad we don’t have public dental insurance in Canada, but we are lucky to have medical insurance. Insurance companies only want the money, but don’t want to pay out. But at least for health care, you will always get looked after here no matter what hospital you go to, and we are lucky to get medical tests done free, though for MRI’s and the like we have to wait for a while, unless its an emergency. Like you say, National health care has its problem and they never have enough money, but so far, its still there for us. I had heart surgery done a while back and was in hospital 8 days in a semi private room as thats all they had available at the time, then I was moved to a private room, and didn’t have to pay a cent. Mary

If we had public dental insurance, I would sign up for that but since we don’t, I don’t carry any dental insurance at all as the premiums are far higher than what I pay as cash payment. — Ron P Member of the invisible generation — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I understand that a consumers’ group tried this a couple of years ago and the pharmaceutical companies got the government and courts to shoot them down. And if there were several organizations doing this they’d compete. And competition would bring the price down even further. Chip

I saw a couple of weeks ago that cancer drugs available in India made under license from an American drug company were selling for $200 US for a years supply and the exact same drug in the US cost $10,000 for the same amount of medication. No subsidies of the Indian price were involved and the company was still making a profit. — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m tired of insurance companies, too. We need a national health plan in this country! It would do a worse job than the private insurance companies. At least they’re competing with each other for subscribers. And competition tends to increase their performance and lower their prices. It is a false assumption that insurance companies are better than national health programs. The insurance companies are in health care for the money and only the money. The bottom line is make a profit at all costs and the patient is only good for paying insurance premiums. The insurance companies have only one motive and that is to make a profit. Patients who are requiring medications are hindrances to the goal of making profits. They are not on the patients side at all. The only competition between the insurance companies is to see who can sucker in the most paying customers for their minimum coverage for the dollar. We don’t have HMO’s here but I have relatives that are dependant on them and I am convinced that one of my uncles would still be alive if he was living in this country and not in the U.S.A. His health insurance ran out and he was forced to go back to work at minimum wage, after paying over a million dollars out of his own pocket for medications and treatment after the failure of his HMO to provide enough treatment for his usually non-terminal cancer. My only personal experience with insurance companies was after being involved in an auto collision. The insurance wasn’t going to pay anything until I hired a determined lawyer. In the end, it cost them a lot more than if they had been reasonable and just paid what the adjuster had recommended. National Health Care programs have their problems but I have yet to hear of anyone being refused necessary treatment because of money.

Ron, I agree with what you said above. Even with our more limited experience with insurance companies than the US, I get hate insurance companies, especially car insurance. I had a car stolen about 10 years ago, and it was only 2.5 years old and got a thousands of dollars less what it would be worth on the open market. Car insurance companies go by wholesale rates. Same with dental insurance. They only pay 50% for a crown and dental work which cost more than fillings, etc. I need to get a crown and it will cost $700.00 and I will pay half, plus the same tooth was filled a couple of months ago and it was $200.00 for the filling which I had to pay half, so I will pay almost $450.00 and insurance rates they pay dentists are based on last years dental scales. Too bad we don’t have public dental insurance in Canada, but we are lucky to have medical insurance. Insurance companies only want the money, but don’t want to pay out. But at least for health care, you will always get looked after here no matter what hospital you go to, and we are lucky to get medical tests done free, though for MRI’s and the like we have to wait for a while, unless its an emergency. Like you say, National health care has its problem and they never have enough money, but so far, its still there for us. I had heart surgery done a while back and was in hospital 8 days in a semi private room as thats all they had available at the time, then I was moved to a private room, and didn’t have to pay a cent. Mary — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Although our health care system is going down the drain fast it seems yours is still a bit worse. What a load of BS! However, as I read it the bottom line is that your doctor *will* call in the PA if necessary and it *is* necessary so he will…. I am taken aback by his general attitude though, that’s no way to treat patients (hehe).

Not so sure, Philip. I was told over a week ago that they would call in the PA. Today, 8 days later, I was told, "No, we haven’t gotten to it yet. There are lots of them to call in." So I’m not so sure the doctor will have someone call it in. Guess I’ll just do without. MikeH . — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Mike, This is the insurance company’s fault to begin with. I’ve called in PA’s before and the reason they are such a PITA is that you have to stay on hold forever – I mean, I’ve stayed on hold for half an hour or longer – while I was also supposed to be helping bring patients back, take vitals, assist with procedures, or a hundred other things. People that work in doctor’s offices don’t have the leisure time to sit on hold forever – then I would get asked some question only the doctor could answer, and I would end up having to call them back.. and wait again..Uh.. been there, done that, quit that, don’t do that any more. And yes, the doctor needs to make sure that you are in the category of patients for whom the medication is necessary. Seems the doctor shouldn’t be blanketly stating that no one should get prior approval for meds he himself has prescribed. Sounds a bit dangerous, even — to do so. But what do I know. Just seems like the more caring way to treat his patients, not to mention the safest way for him to avoid lawsuits. I guess I’m lucky – I had to have PA to take Prilosec BID for my hiatal hernia, and normally my company only allows it once a day – maybe it’s my company (cudos to Humana if so).. but they approved me for life, and I don’t ever have to get approval again to take more than they normally allow. Mike – you have every right to be angry about this. Angry at the doctor and angry at the insurance company. I’m so tired of insurance companies dictating to physicians how to treat patients, it makes me ill. I could write a book on some things I’ve seen. Just deplorable. Take good care, and write some letters. Sally — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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The system up hear buy medications in bulk which lowers the costs tremendously. That is why there are bus loads of Americans coming to Canada to buy the exact same medication that is available in the U.S.A. but at a very much lower cost. — Ron P Member of the invisible generation — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Mike, you’d still be paying for the high price of meds but doing it through taxes. And big government makes a mess of everything it does. And we’d all be paying them money to make the mess. Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I’m tired of insurance companies, too. We need a national health plan in this country! It would do a worse job than the private insurance companies. At least they’re competing with each other for subscribers. And competition tends to increase their performance and lower their prices.

It is a false assumption that insurance companies are better than national health programs. The insurance companies are in health care for the money and only the money. The bottom line is make a profit at all costs and the patient is only good for paying insurance premiums. The insurance companies have only one motive and that is to make a profit. Patients who are requiring medications are hindrances to the goal of making profits. They are not on the patients side at all. The only competition between the insurance companies is to see who can sucker in the most paying customers for their minimum coverage for the dollar. We don’t have HMO’s here but I have relatives that are dependant on them and I am convinced that one of my uncles would still be alive if he was living in this country and not in the U.S.A. His health insurance ran out and he was forced to go back to work at minimum wage, after paying over a million dollars out of his own pocket for medications and treatment after the failure of his HMO to provide enough treatment for his usually non-terminal cancer. My only personal experience with insurance companies was after being involved in an auto collision. The insurance wasn’t going to pay anything until I hired a determined lawyer. In the end, it cost them a lot more than if they had been reasonable and just paid what the adjuster had recommended. National Health Care programs have their problems but I have yet to hear of anyone being refused necessary treatment because of money. — Ron P Member of the invisible generation — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Sorry, Chip, but that doesn’t show up in my recent costs for meds. And the national health plan in France works very well for all my in-laws. The drug companies have a CARTEL on prescription meds in this country. MikeH . — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I’m tired of insurance companies, too. We need a national health plan in this country!

It would do a worse job than the private insurance companies. At least they’re competing with each other for subscribers. And competition tends to increase their performance and lower their prices. Chip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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MH schreef: Although our health care system is going down the drain fast it seems yours is still a bit worse. What a load of BS! However, as I read it the bottom line is that your doctor *will* call in the PA if necessary and it *is* necessary so he will…. I am taken aback by his general attitude though, that’s no way to treat patients (hehe). Not so sure, Philip. I was told over a week ago that they would call in the PA. Today, 8 days later, I was told, "No, we haven’t gotten to it yet. There are lots of them to call in." So I’m not so sure the doctor will have someone call it in. Guess I’ll just do without. MikeH

Call them and *bitch* about it. Don’t accept it. Make it as clear as possible without making enemies. You are a most polite and civilized person, use your gentle charm to be very persuasive. Insist in a friendly way (acting somewhat hurt sometimes works well too Philip .

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Thanks, Sally. I don’t think letter writing will do any good. I’m tired of insurance companies, too. We need a national health plan in this country! MikeH

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Thanks, Sally. I don’t think letter writing will do any good. I’m tired of insurance companies, too. We need a national health plan in this country! MikeH

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m so pissed off right now I don’t know what to do!! I am on two maintenance medications, Prevacid and Lipitor, that I take everyday. One is for reflux, the other is for cholesterol. Every six months when my prescription runs out, my doctor’s office has called in to get a prior authorization for me so that I can get the med through my insurance. Now, the doctor’s office doesn’t want to do anymore prior authorizations, because it takes too much time and, as the doctor said, he would have to hire another full-time person to do all the PA’s. I understand the doctor’s situation. But I’m his patient! I think he should feel an obligation to be sure that I have the medication that *HE* prescribed for my condition. And I would think that he should *CARE* enough about his patients NOT to leave them without medications they need because of this. Well, I called last week to ask if I needed to find another doctor who could get the PAs for me. The nurse I spoke with said, "No, no, no… we are not going to let you go without your medication. If you can’t get it any other way, we will call in the PA. We just need to try to get patients to take other meds that don’t require the PAs if possible. I explained that I had called my insurance company and that I was told that ALL the meds in the class of Prevacid require a prior authorization. So, no matter what I take, I would have to have a PA. Yes, I’m angry at the insurance company. But what can I do? I am a peon! I work for the state, and this is the insurance program I have. Can I, as a patient, call in, myself, to request a Prior Authorization?? The pharmacist says my doctor’s office has to call in for the PA. Help!! MikeH Mike, This is the insurance company’s fault to begin with. I’ve called in PA’s before and the reason they are such a PITA is that you have to stay on hold forever – I mean, I’ve stayed on hold for half an hour or longer – while I was also supposed to be helping bring patients back, take vitals, assist with procedures, or a hundred other things. People that work in doctor’s offices don’t have the leisure time to sit on hold forever – then I would get asked some question only the doctor could answer, and I would end up having to call them back.. and wait again..Uh.. been there, done that, quit that, don’t do that any more. And yes, the doctor needs to make sure that you are in the category of patients for whom the medication is necessary. Seems the doctor shouldn’t be blanketly stating that no one should get prior approval for meds he himself has prescribed. Sounds a bit dangerous, even — to do so. But what do I know. Just seems like the more caring way to treat his patients, not to mention the safest way for him to avoid lawsuits. I guess I’m lucky – I had to have PA to take Prilosec BID for my hiatal hernia, and normally my company only allows it once a day – maybe it’s my company (cudos to Humana if so).. but they approved me for life, and I don’t ever have to get approval again to take more than they normally allow. Mike – you have every right to be angry about this. Angry at the doctor and angry at the insurance company. I’m so tired of insurance companies dictating to physicians how to treat patients, it makes me ill. I could write a book on some things I’ve seen. Just deplorable. Take good care, and write some letters.

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::((((Jackie)))) :: ::I’m so sorry to hear that you are going through the same thing with Katie. :::(( Has the doctor *refused* to call in the authorization for her meds?? :: ::In *my* case, the prior authorization requires that the doctor’s office ::*call* the insurance company. I’m sure they have to go through recorded ::messages and it probably takes awhile with each one. So I *understand* the ::doctor’s dilemma. But there’s no point in prescribing a med for a patient ::if he’s not going to do what it takes for the patient to get the med to ::take. No, the rheumy has been very cooperative. I received a call this afternoon that the PA is done. Took 8 days! From what I was told, there’s paperwork that needs to be filled out by the doctor. ::Good luck with YOUR battle!! You too, Mike!! Jackie ~*~Nature made us individuals,as she did the flowers and the pebbles; but we are afraid to be peculiar,and so our society resembles a bag of marbles, or a string of mold candles. Why should we all dress after the same fashion? The frost never paints my windows twice alike.~*~ ~~Lydia Maria Child — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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MH schreef: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m so pissed off right now I don’t know what to do!! I am on two maintenance medications, Prevacid and Lipitor, that I take everyday. One is for reflux, the other is for cholesterol. Every six months when my prescription runs out, my doctor’s office has called in to get a prior authorization for me so that I can get the med through my insurance. Now, the doctor’s office doesn’t want to do anymore prior authorizations, because it takes too much time and, as the doctor said, he would have to hire another full-time person to do all the PA’s. I understand the doctor’s situation. But I’m his patient! I think he should feel an obligation to be sure that I have the medication that *HE* prescribed for my condition. And I would think that he should *CARE* enough about his patients NOT to leave them without medications they need because of this. Well, I called last week to ask if I needed to find another doctor who could get the PAs for me. The nurse I spoke with said, "No, no, no… we are not going to let you go without your medication. If you can’t get it any other way, we will call in the PA. We just need to try to get patients to take other meds that don’t require the PAs if possible. I explained that I had called my insurance company and that I was told that ALL the meds in the class of Prevacid require a prior authorization. So, no matter what I take, I would have to have a PA. Yes, I’m angry at the insurance company. But what can I do? I am a peon! I work for the state, and this is the insurance program I have. Can I, as a patient, call in, myself, to request a Prior Authorization?? The pharmacist says my doctor’s office has to call in for the PA. Help!! MikeH

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((((Jackie)))) I’m so sorry to hear that you are going through the same thing with Katie. ( Has the doctor *refused* to call in the authorization for her meds?? In *my* case, the prior authorization requires that the doctor’s office *call* the insurance company. I’m sure they have to go through recorded messages and it probably takes awhile with each one. So I *understand* the doctor’s dilemma. But there’s no point in prescribing a med for a patient if he’s not going to do what it takes for the patient to get the med to take. Good luck with YOUR battle!! MikeH

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I’m so pissed off right now I don’t know what to do!! I am on two maintenance medications, Prevacid and Lipitor, that I take everyday. One is for reflux, the other is for cholesterol. Every six months when my prescription runs out, my doctor’s office has called in to get a prior authorization for me so that I can get the med through my insurance. Now, the doctor’s office doesn’t want to do anymore prior authorizations, because it takes too much time and, as the doctor said, he would have to hire another full-time person to do all the PA’s. I understand the doctor’s situation. But I’m his patient! I think he should feel an obligation to be sure that I have the medication that *HE* prescribed for my condition. And I would think that he should *CARE* enough about his patients NOT to leave them without medications they need because of this. Well, I called last week to ask if I needed to find another doctor who could get the PAs for me. The nurse I spoke with said, "No, no, no… we are not going to let you go without your medication. If you can’t get it any other way, we will call in the PA. We just need to try to get patients to take other meds that don’t require the PAs if possible. I explained that I had called my insurance company and that I was told that ALL the meds in the class of Prevacid require a prior authorization. So, no matter what I take, I would have to have a PA. Yes, I’m angry at the insurance company. But what can I do? I am a peon! I work for the state, and this is the insurance program I have. Can I, as a patient, call in, myself, to request a Prior Authorization?? The pharmacist says my doctor’s office has to call in for the PA. Help!! MikeH . — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I wish I could help you, Mike, but I don’t know anything about PA’s. I’m so sorry they’re doing this to you. I hope they keep calling it in for you. {{{{{Mike}}}}} Love, Di

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What's on YOUR Ringtone..?

admin — Fri, 20 Oct 2006 00:00:00 +0000

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When my phone rings, this song is played in MIDI: Ow! Look out! Ow! Look out! Ow! Look out! How long? How long? Till that mystery roach be arrivin’ soon Ya-ooo Ya-ooo Ya-ooo Ya-ooo That mystery roach be approachin’ That mystery roach be approachin’ me La La La La La La La, Oof! How long? How long? Till that mystery roach been gone Ya-ooo-ooo-oo-ooo Ya-ooo-ooo-oo-ooo That mystery roach be approachin’ That mystery roach be approachin’ me La La La La La La La, Oof! That mystery roach be approachin’ That mystery roach be approachin’ me La La La La La La La, Oof! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! . . . once in a minute . . . Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery mystery roach! Howard: Ah! Hold it! Wait a minute! Stop that music! Please . . . Hold it! Wait a minute! Ah . . . What are we SINGING about? A mystery roach? We must be . . . FLIPPING OUT! …It is history in the making… ……and it’s in the Key of ‘ A ‘.. …what more could any civilized man want…

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My opinion: Ring tones are for kids. They are annoying as all hell. Mine is set to vibrate only. …and no, I do NOT pick up the call in a grocery store, restaurant, cinema… And I try not to use it in the car. I’m more coordinated than most, but half of the time you see a driver cross the lane marker, they’re on the freakin’ phone. HEY! You in the SUV wandering into my lane… It’s a car, not a phone booth!

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My PH# is too private to worry about that, if I get a call, there is a reason. But I pull over, if no other reason I need to focus on the call..or the driving..not both. In a store, I just shut off..might try vib for s/grins. HEY! You in the SUV wandering into my lane… It’s a car, not a phone booth!

Just talking, or ESPN’ng/web surfing on a 3" screen, TOO much toy/too little phone. I don’t text msg, net on phone, or media anything, although my 2 V3I’s can do it all. NO mp3’s / songs on the phone (can hold 100+) and who cares Never liked vib from da phone, save as added to the ring. I just hate hearing some one elses stock factory ring thinking it’s mine. OK, Vib can change that, but the V3I has a week motion. I also know that few, if anyone around me have FZ MIDI as a ring tone. The V3I can run 20 secs+ of MIDI each ring thump. By the time Howard is asking "..what are we singing about.." I’ve hung up. JJTj

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I’m not much for the phone to begin with and, fortunately, neither is my girlfriend; we both prefer to talk face to face. My phone is set to use least annoying ring that came with it.

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Back from tests for now

admin — Fri, 13 Oct 2006 00:00:00 +0000

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Oh Kili I feel sooooo bad for you! I just don’t know what to say. {{{{{{{Kili}}}}}}} Love, Di

Thanks, Di. I’m a little depressed, but I have to go through it. I don’t have much of a choice. It’s going to be a long road to recuperation. I’ll keep you guys posted. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well, I’m back from the Mayo Clinic for the first round of tests. Sheesh, what an ordeal! I have to go back next week to duplicate many I’ve already had done (they want to be SURE) and add on a few more. (I’ve already had a CT scan, a bone scan, an MRI, an ultrasound and a chest X-Ray.) Basically, the oncologists, radiologists, surgeons and specialists I’ve seen tell me that they’ve never run across a case like mine and it’s going to take some radical surgery to get my tumor out. The tumor is wrapped up in the connective tissue between my ribs and is almost reaching my heart. Because it’s almost to my heart and lungs, they do not want to have me go through radiation for fear that radiation could damage my heart and lungs. What they’re thinking they may do (but they’re still conferring and they’ll know more after more tests next week) is that they will remove my sternum, three ribs, my left breast and the muscle on my left chest side. Since that would leave me with a rather large hole in my chest that would expose my heart, they want to remove my lower two abdominal muscles from the "6-pack", place a strip of surgical gauze over the gap, and lay the removed muscles over the gauze. It’s totally scary, but there isn’t another alternative at this time. So, yeah, it sucks. It really sucks, but I thought I’d let you guys know. On a good note, my anxiety was so bad at the clinic that they couldn’t tap my veins because I was shaking so badly. They put me on Xanax, which seems to help – at least I was able to sleep last night. kili ((((((((((((kili))))))))))))

I’d love to meet you, too. I think what you’re going through is just about as bad as what I am! How we manage with all of our fears, I will never know. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Geez, Kili… it sucks to be the "unique case" with something like this. That’s an awful lot of surgery, but if it gives you your life from cancer, it will be well worth it. I’m glad you are seeing the experts. Keep taking meds to help with your anxiety. You surely deserve all the calm you can buy for yourself right now. ((((((((Kili))))))) Praying for you…. xxoo Anne

Thanks, Anne. I need all the encouragement I can get right now. All this terrifies me. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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((((((Kili)))))) Tony – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well, I’m back from the Mayo Clinic for the first round of tests. Sheesh, what an ordeal! I have to go back next week to duplicate many I’ve already had done (they want to be SURE) and add on a few more. (I’ve already had a CT scan, a bone scan, an MRI, an ultrasound and a chest X-Ray.) Basically, the oncologists, radiologists, surgeons and specialists I’ve seen tell me that they’ve never run across a case like mine and it’s going to take some radical surgery to get my tumor out. The tumor is wrapped up in the connective tissue between my ribs and is almost reaching my heart. Because it’s almost to my heart and lungs, they do not want to have me go through radiation for fear that radiation could damage my heart and lungs. What they’re thinking they may do (but they’re still conferring and they’ll know more after more tests next week) is that they will remove my sternum, three ribs, my left breast and the muscle on my left chest side. Since that would leave me with a rather large hole in my chest that would expose my heart, they want to remove my lower two abdominal muscles from the "6-pack", place a strip of surgical gauze over the gap, and lay the removed muscles over the gauze. It’s totally scary, but there isn’t another alternative at this time. So, yeah, it sucks. It really sucks, but I thought I’d let you guys know. On a good note, my anxiety was so bad at the clinic that they couldn’t tap my veins because I was shaking so badly. They put me on Xanax, which seems to help – at least I was able to sleep last night. kili

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well, I’m back from the Mayo Clinic for the first round of tests. Sheesh, what an ordeal! I have to go back next week to duplicate many I’ve already had done (they want to be SURE) and add on a few more. (I’ve already had a CT scan, a bone scan, an MRI, an ultrasound and a chest X-Ray.) Basically, the oncologists, radiologists, surgeons and specialists I’ve seen tell me that they’ve never run across a case like mine and it’s going to take some radical surgery to get my tumor out. The tumor is wrapped up in the connective tissue between my ribs and is almost reaching my heart. Because it’s almost to my heart and lungs, they do not want to have me go through radiation for fear that radiation could damage my heart and lungs. What they’re thinking they may do (but they’re still conferring and they’ll know more after more tests next week) is that they will remove my sternum, three ribs, my left breast and the muscle on my left chest side. Since that would leave me with a rather large hole in my chest that would expose my heart, they want to remove my lower two abdominal muscles from the "6-pack", place a strip of surgical gauze over the gap, and lay the removed muscles over the gauze. It’s totally scary, but there isn’t another alternative at this time. So, yeah, it sucks. It really sucks, but I thought I’d let you guys know. On a good note, my anxiety was so bad at the clinic that they couldn’t tap my veins because I was shaking so badly. They put me on Xanax, which seems to help – at least I was able to sleep last night. kili —

Kili, I’m so sorry. You are very, very brave. I admire your ability to deal with this. You’re, as always, in my thoughts and prayers. (((((((((((((((((Kili)))))))))))))))))))) Love, Dawn — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi Kilikini: Thanx for the update. Amazing what modern medicine can do today, isn’t it. Sorry you have to go thru this but the alternative isn’t an option, as you indicated. You have my prayers and sending vibes of strength. -frizz — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Thanks, Frizzie. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I’m really depressed, to put it bluntly. My husband has been so good and says he doesn’t care, but I start crying. I am going to feel hideously disfigured and ugly. Kili, please ask the hospital social worker to refer you to a support group or network, or to someone on staff who counsels cancer patients. You are NOT alone in your horror of what is to come, and I’m sure there are people who have been through major surgery like this who could reassure you and share their stories. xxoo Anne

That’s not a bad idea, Anne. I never thought of that. I’ll look into it, thank you! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I’m really depressed, to put it bluntly. My husband has been so good and says he doesn’t care, but I start crying. I am going to feel hideously disfigured and ugly.

Kili, please ask the hospital social worker to refer you to a support group or network, or to someone on staff who counsels cancer patients. You are NOT alone in your horror of what is to come, and I’m sure there are people who have been through major surgery like this who could reassure you and share their stories. xxoo Anne — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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((((Kili)))) Your bravery is an inspiration! I wish you well! Sending lots of positive thoughts and energy your way!! MikeH Thank you, but you’re making me out to be braver than I am! I’m scared sh*tless!

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((((Kili)))) Your bravery is an inspiration! I wish you well! Sending lots of positive thoughts and energy your way!! MikeH

Thank you, but you’re making me out to be braver than I am! I’m scared sh*tless! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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((((Kili)))) Your bravery is an inspiration! I wish you well! Sending lots of positive thoughts and energy your way!! MikeH

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well, I’m back from the Mayo Clinic for the first round of tests. Sheesh, what an ordeal! I have to go back next week to duplicate many I’ve already had done (they want to be SURE) and add on a few more. (I’ve already had a CT scan, a bone scan, an MRI, an ultrasound and a chest X-Ray.) {{ Kili}} The more you learn, the more you know. I know this is scary and awful and is very much like going into a long, dark, winding tunnel with no light visible at the end. That would be enough to flatten anyone’s spirits, even without pre-existing anxiety disorder. Duplicate testing not only gives the Mayo staff time, experience, and knowledge, it also serves to allow you the same. Time to search online, time to learn as much as you can about this rare beast. Realistically, your illness is so rare that the caregivers will be reading the same online articles you can access. Read, research, bring yourself to treatment as a partner IN treatment, with questions. Print out what you find and ask if they’ve read this or that. As you go thru this ordeal, remember, you do have a voice. Nothing is written in stone. Perhaps you don’t feel that way right now, but you CAN and WILL become involved in the possibilities and choices available. Give them a run for their money. Feeling like a lab rodent is not obligatory, you can refuse to take that "label" by arming yourself with the best available information. Doc’s don’t get involved with the payment info, so separate your spirit from being a "charity case". You are a wonderful human spirit going through an undescribably difficult time. Sue

Sue, what a wonderfully kind thing to say. Thank you. I have been feeling like their guinea pig and maybe I’m looking at it the wrong way, but it’s all so new and frightening to me. I’ve never been stuck with a needle before this and I’ve been stuck more times than I can count already. Now next week is more of the same. Sigh. I will get through this because I have no choice. I appreciate your uplifting post. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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{{ Kili}} The more you learn, the more you know. I know this is scary and awful and is very much like going into a long, dark, winding tunnel with no light visible at the end. That would be enough to flatten anyone’s spirits, even without pre-existing anxiety disorder. Duplicate testing not only gives the Mayo staff time, experience, and knowledge, it also serves to allow you the same. Time to search online, time to learn as much as you can about this rare beast. Realistically, your illness is so rare that the caregivers will be reading the same online articles you can access. Read, research, bring yourself to treatment as a partner IN treatment, with questions. Print out what you find and ask if they’ve read this or that. As you go thru this ordeal, remember, you do have a voice. Nothing is written in stone. Perhaps you don’t feel that way right now, but you CAN and WILL become involved in the possibilities and choices available. Give them a run for their money. Feeling like a lab rodent is not obligatory, you can refuse to take that "label" by arming yourself with the best available information. Doc’s don’t get involved with the payment info, so separate your spirit from being a "charity case". You are a wonderful human spirit going through an undescribably difficult time. Sue — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi Kili, It sound scary all these things, but like you said, not much choice. I hope everything goes well for you. We seem to be manage to get enough strength to do what we have to do, even when we don’t want to. Sounds like you are getting good medical care. My very best wishes to you Kili. Mary

Thanks, Mary, truth is I am getting the very best medical care possible AND it’s *paid* for because they’re using me as a guinea pig – so all my medical bills are covered. They gave me a grant due to the rareness of my illness. Can’t beat that. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi, Kili, Wow, you’ve been through a lot and I admire your strength. How are you feeling over all of this being done? I hope and pray they get the tumor removed soon so you can start the healing process and put this behind you. ((((((Kili)))))) smiles, Elise

Thanks, Elise. How do I feel over all this being done? Honestly, I’m really upset. I will only have one breast and I can not get a prosthesis. If I could get an implant, I wouldn’t care as much, but implants go under the muscle and rest on the ribcage – I won’t have a ribcage. Secondly, since I will have no ribcage, there will be nothing there to protect my heart and lungs. A blow to my chest can kill me. I’m dreading this, I’m scared, I’ll have a zipper scar from above my *breast* down around to the bottom of where it should be. I will no longer be able to wear a scoop neck shirt, an open neck blouse or a bathing suit without eyes staring at me – not that I go anywhere now, but, you know, what if. I’m really depressed, to put it bluntly. My husband has been so good and says he doesn’t care, but I start crying. I am going to feel hideously disfigured and ugly. I’m experiencing a myriad of emotions; sadness, anger, acceptance, back to anger……. I’m sure it’s all normal to feel this way, I know. Deirdre didn’t want all her crap to happen to her teeth, Sally didn’t want the foot thing, and Gigglz doesn’t want to be in pain. Wow, we’re a sorry lot here, aren’t we!?! LOL kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Oh Kili I feel sooooo bad for you! I just don’t know what to say. {{{{{{{Kili}}}}}}} Love, Di

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((((((((((((Kili)))))))))))) You are a brave woman. All my special thoughts go out to you…you deserve every one of them. Love, Gigglz

Thanks, Gigglz! I appreciate it. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Well, I’m back from the Mayo Clinic for the first round of tests. Sheesh, what an ordeal! I have to go back next week to duplicate many I’ve already had done (they want to be SURE) and add on a few more. (I’ve already had a CT scan, a bone scan, an MRI, an ultrasound and a chest X-Ray.) Basically, the oncologists, radiologists, surgeons and specialists I’ve seen tell me that they’ve never run across a case like mine and it’s going to take some radical surgery to get my tumor out. The tumor is wrapped up in the connective tissue between my ribs and is almost reaching my heart. Because it’s almost to my heart and lungs, they do not want to have me go through radiation for fear that radiation could damage my heart and lungs. What they’re thinking they may do (but they’re still conferring and they’ll know more after more tests next week) is that they will remove my sternum, three ribs, my left breast and the muscle on my left chest side. Since that would leave me with a rather large hole in my chest that would expose my heart, they want to remove my lower two abdominal muscles from the "6-pack", place a strip of surgical gauze over the gap, and lay the removed muscles over the gauze. It’s totally scary, but there isn’t another alternative at this time. So, yeah, it sucks. It really sucks, but I thought I’d let you guys know. On a good note, my anxiety was so bad at the clinic that they couldn’t tap my veins because I was shaking so badly. They put me on Xanax, which seems to help – at least I was able to sleep last night. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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OT: Prayers, please!!

admin — Sat, 07 Oct 2006 00:00:00 +0000

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Dearest Peeps, My mother is so very sick. She is having an MRI on Tuesday and a bone scan. As many of you know, she has cancer. Lately (past 2 months), she has been really sick from the chemo pill. Well now, her hips, legs and especially her back is causing SO much pain that she can barely get out of bed. My dad says that she shakes because she hurts so bad. When I spoke to Dad this afternoon, he told me that each day, Mom is a bit worse. We are HOPING and PRAYING that this has something to do w/her spine and *NOT* cancer that has spread. I’ve been in denial, I guess. I’m so used to having Mom in my life that I don’t ever look at what "may" happen one day, some day, or even one day sooner than later as of now. `Hope this makes sense. I can’t picture Mom not being in my life. I can’t and I won’t. So, please, turn up the volume on prayers for "Shirley". Thanks a million….

Dear Laurie…. Prayers and good thoughts being sent your way….. for your family, and most especially for Shirley. Please keep us posted! Comforting hugs! MikeH . — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Laurie, Sorry things are not going well for your mother right now. It must be awful for her to be in so much pain. I am sure you are very concerned. Hope things improve. Prayers for Shirley. Mary — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Mayo Results

admin — Wed, 04 Oct 2006 00:00:00 +0000

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kilikini schreef: ((((((Kili))))) One day at a time. First they haver to find out whether the tumor has actually spread. Maybe it hasn’t. If it has it will be a difficult process, it would be idiotic to deny that. But it is something people tend to come to terms with. Now it is all fresh and overwhelming but we have a way of adapting to circumstances that is often amazing. Let’s wait for the test results. Please keep us updated and vent all you want, that’s what we’re here for. Use the group. Philip

Thanks, Philip. I feel like I’m being really needy, but, I *do* feel needy. Thanks for being so nice. This is absolutely the most difficult thing I have ever had to deal with. People like you help make it almost bearable. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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(((((((((Kilikini))))))))))) Sending you all my best thoughts. You have wonderful care! I’m quite certain this is all too overwhelming for you, sweetie. :-( Your strength, courage and determination combined with your attitude will take over any and all fears…and you will get through this with the help of all who love you, and care!!!! Love and hugs, Gigglz

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Dear Kili, I’m glad you will be getting the very best care possible. That IS good news. I do understand your anxiety. Not only are you anxious and terrified about the Fibromatosis, but all the medical tests, procedures, doctor visits and hospitals as well. Being a phobic about these things myself, I admire your courage and determination. Wishing you nothing but the very best! (((((Kili))))) Thanks, Jackie, I just don’t feel very courageous, but I know it has to be done. I just wish someone could put me in a coma to do it all! kili

Be careful what you wish for, Kili. The best response to treatment for serious stuff comes from the optimism and positivity of the patient. You’ve conquered a lot of battles in this war, and you are still standing, fighting, planning, loving, caring, living and dealing. Keep it up, one day at a time. {{ Kili}} — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Dear Kili, I’m glad you will be getting the very best care possible. That IS good news. I do understand your anxiety. Not only are you anxious and terrified about the Fibromatosis, but all the medical tests, procedures, doctor visits and hospitals as well. Being a phobic about these things myself, I admire your courage and determination. Wishing you nothing but the very best! (((((Kili)))))

Thanks, Jackie, I just don’t feel very courageous, but I know it has to be done. I just wish someone could put me in a coma to do it all! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi, Kili, It’s a shame they couldn’t have just admitted you right then and there so you wouldn’t have to deal with any added anxiety but that’s not how these facilities work. Vent all you need to, Kili, we are here for you. smiles, Elise Thanks, Jackie, I just don’t feel very courageous, but I know it has to be done. I just wish someone could put me in a coma to do it all! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Kili, I know this is hard on you. My mom is fighting the cancer battle. I’m afraid she’s so tired of being sick and tired that she is giving up. All I can say is do NOT give up. Keep fighting. The longer you fight, the longer you’ll live and have a chance to beat this. I’m from Jax, FL and know the Mayo Clinic well. You can’t be in a better place!!! BTW, Mom was on Tamoxifen. She had *no* side effects on it. She was on it for about a year, and then it stopped working for her. But, hey… you never know with medication. Each case is different. So, it IS worth a try!!! Peace to you, Kili…. WHAT CANCER CAN’T DO It cannot cripple love, it cannot shatter hope It cannot corrode faith, it cannot eat away peace it cannot destroy confidence, it cannot kill friendship It cannot shut out the memories, it cannot silence courage It cannot invade the soul, it cannot reduce eternal life. It cannot quench the Spirit. Our greatest enemy is not disease, but despair.

Thanks, Laurie and I’m sorry to hear about your mom. I can certainly understand her position of being tired of being in pain and being sick all the time. I wish your mom the best. If you need to talk, I’ll be here to listen as long as I’m not up in Jax! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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{{{{{Kili}}}}} I’m so sorry you have to go through all of this. I hope it works. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Always keep us posted when you can. Thinking of you now. I’m glad the trip to Mayo was productive. Love, Di

Thanks, Di. I’ve never been one to say "why me", but I’m actually saying it in this case. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. But, if Sally can deal with her food, and Deirdre can deal with her teeth, I guess I’ll deal with this. We are some brave souls, aren’t we? kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi, Kili, Glad to hear you feel good about the facility where you will be treated. Try to keep yourself distracted over the next several days so the anxiety doesn’t get out of hand. Take this one step at a time. Stay positive with the treatment. ((((((Kili))))) smiles, Elise

Thanks, Elise, I’m going to do the best I can. I wish I could sleep; it’s been 3 days without it, now. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m terrified, I’m panicking and I want to go hide in a closet. kili Breathe, kili — breathe. Slow, relaxed breaths. Watch your abdomen rise and fall gently with your breathing. Now that you have some oxygen open the closet door and peek out. No monsters in sight. You can come out now. You have some of the best doctors in the world working for you. Can you do anything about your condition right at this moment? Probably not, so do something else, something more enjoyable. Yeah, I know, it’s easy to say all that. And I’m talking to myself as much as I am to you. Let’s all just breathe tonight. We can deal with tomorrow when it comes.

I’m so glad that you all are here; you’re the only ones who understand how things like this can just torture a person. You’re right, Deirdre, I can’t do anything about my condition today, so why worry about it. Maybe turning on a nice, romantic comedy might help get my mind off everything. I’ve got the TV on now and I swear, every other commercial has the word CANCER in it. I don’t need to be reminded! I’m starting to feel a little better. I want to concentrate on having a nice evening with my husband and no references to my disease! Thanks, folks! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m terrified, I’m panicking and I want to go hide in a closet. Hi Kili, You don’t know me but I drop in here sometimes and have seen a few of your posts. I posted a message here to you last week. The post showed up on my news service list but not on Google, so looks like it didn’t go through. I hope this post goes through properly. You sure have a lot to deal with. But it looks like doctors and other staff at the Mayo are doing all they can and you are getting good care. I can only imagine your anxiety and fear. A lot is going on with you and you are having to face very difficult problems. It wouldn’t be easy for anyone in your position. All you can do is try to control your anxiety as best you can and take it easy on yourself. Best wishes. I’m sure you will do well Kili Mary

Thanks, Mary. The doctors at Mayo are being really thorough; in a way, I wish I could have gone up there first and saved myself months of pain from my previously botched surgery. (The Mayo oncologist called it a hatchet job.) Another good thing about this trip to the clinic was that my husband was there with me and he finally understood the severity of my illness. He kept saying before, why aren’t you feeling better yet? Well, he gets it now! Even though I’ve told him that this is an extremely aggressive and recurring tumor, when he heard it from the doctor at Mayo, I think he was more than a little surprised. The important thing is that he’s being supportive. Thanks for your support, too, Mary. It’s appreciated. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Well, folks, I’m home today. I got the litany on my condition of Fibromatosis today. Sigh. (Major panic/anxiety attack at the clinic, btw.) I have to say this clinic is run like a well-oiled machine. Dang, they’re good! Basically, the oncologist thinks the tumor I had removed in late June is back already, and it has possibly spread (which I thought, too). So, I have to return to the clinic Monday morning (that 5 hour drive is torture) for blood work, urinalysis, an MRI – under sedation – and a bone scan to see if the tumors have spread to my rib bones. Tuesday’s regimen is a CT scan, an ultrasound, and then another consultation – with a radiologist, this time. Based upon the results of the tests, a thoracic surgeon, an oncologist, the radiologist and a plastic surgeon are going to talk about what the best course of treatment will be for me. They’re thinking they may want to remove a couple of my ribs, my breasts and another section of my chest muscle. With surgery performed, and with the use of a drug called Tamoxifen, while undergoing radiation and possibly chemotherapy, the oncologist thinks they may be able to control my condition. Again, since Fibromatosis is so rare, I’m going to be basically a guinea pig. Yay. Also, again, treatment all depends upon the outcome of my tests. Meanwhile, I think pulling the trigger on a 12-gauge shotgun to my head sounds like more fun. I’m terrified, I’m panicking and I want to go hide in a closet.

Kili, I know this is hard on you. My mom is fighting the cancer battle. I’m afraid she’s so tired of being sick and tired that she is giving up. All I can say is do NOT give up. Keep fighting. The longer you fight, the longer you’ll live and have a chance to beat this. I’m from Jax, FL and know the Mayo Clinic well. You can’t be in a better place!!! BTW, Mom was on Tamoxifen. She had *no* side effects on it. She was on it for about a year, and then it stopped working for her. But, hey… you never know with medication. Each case is different. So, it IS worth a try!!! Peace to you, Kili…. WHAT CANCER CAN’T DO It cannot cripple love, it cannot shatter hope It cannot corrode faith, it cannot eat away peace it cannot destroy confidence, it cannot kill friendship It cannot shut out the memories, it cannot silence courage It cannot invade the soul, it cannot reduce eternal life. It cannot quench the Spirit. Our greatest enemy is not disease, but despair. —

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Hey folks, I got a letter from the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL today regarding my request for a Charity Case to treat my cancer. This is what a section of it said, and I’m interested in your interpretation of what it means because my husband and I are at odds. "Thank you for taking the time to fill out the financial questionnaire. We realize that some who come to Mayo Clinic may face financial hardships in meeting the cost of medical care. Mayo Clinic has reviewed your request for financial assistance. In order to help relieve some of your financial burder, we have approved your request. You will not be asked to make payment on any charges related to your diagnosis of Fibromatosis." Okay, question, to me that sounds like they’re taking me on and will help treat my condition. My husband says that he thinks it means they will help diagnose my condition. I’ve already been diagnosed. Doesn’t it sound like they will help with treatment? Any thoughts welcome! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Doesn’t it sound like they will help with treatment?

It sounds like they’re saying you don’t need to pay them for your diagnosis, but you won’t know for sure until you get a hold of someone at Mayo who knows the answer. Again, I can not stress this strongly enough: make no jokes on the phone about mayonnaise. They won’t be amused. Ian — What can I say about this elixir? Try it on steaks! Cleans nylons! Small craft warnings! It’s great for the home! The office! On fruits! (Frank Zappa) http://sundry.ws/ — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Sounds to me like they are saying they will help with the cost of treatment for the Fibromatosis! But…. is there a phone number you can call to be sure? Best wishes! MikeH

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Hi, Kili, I agree with Jackie. This is wonderful news and a good start for you. DO keep a file of all emails or snail mail you receive from the clinic. smiles, Elise

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Kili, it sounds like a free ride to me. Great! You should definitely clarify it with them, though. xxoo Anne — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Kili, I agree with the others.. I think they are saying they will cover anything related to your fibromatosis condition. This is such wonderful news, I am so very happy for you!!!!! Like everyone else said, I echo: call and confirm. If you are super anxious, call a few times LOL. Seriously. If you have a question, ask..and ask until you know that you know so you can relax and not wonder "what if". Keep that letter. Do what Jackie recommends, she knows her stuff. Love and congrats again, I am very happy for you. Sally — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Kili, The way I read it is, they will cover anything related to your current diagnosis, which is Fribromatosis. I believe you’re correct on this one. I wouldn’t read it the other way. Everything I’ve ever received from my PPO reads like this when they’re covering something. Call them and double check, but it sounds like you’re in! This is great news! Love, Dawn — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Sounds to me like they’ll not charge you for anything related to the fibromatosis, but will not treat you for anything else. — David Chamberlain – ASAPM Moderator | Support for anxiety or panic disorders. Check us out! | | alt.support.anxiety-panic.moderated http://stump.algebra.com/~asapm | — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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HI, As others have suggested, I would call or perhaps write a quick note / e-mail to them. I would thank them for approving you, and just say something like "I am proboly just a bit anxious about this, and I applogize, could you please help clarify something for me? Can you please tell me if this program will cover my ongoing treatment for this condition or if this aid program only applies to the diagnosistic phase" jamie — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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That’s how I took it, too. I leave for the Mayo Clinic today because my appt. is early tomorrow morning. I’ll know more when I get there. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey folks, I got a letter from the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL today regarding my request for a Charity Case to treat my cancer. This is what a section of it said, and I’m interested in your interpretation of what it means because my husband and I are at odds. "Thank you for taking the time to fill out the financial questionnaire. We realize that some who come to Mayo Clinic may face financial hardships in meeting the cost of medical care. Mayo Clinic has reviewed your request for financial assistance. In order to help relieve some of your financial burder, we have approved your request. You will not be asked to make payment on any charges related to your diagnosis of Fibromatosis." Okay, question, to me that sounds like they’re taking me on and will help treat my condition. My husband says that he thinks it means they will help diagnose my condition. I’ve already been diagnosed. Doesn’t it sound like they will help with treatment? Any thoughts welcome! kili Kili, The way I read it is, they will cover anything related to your current diagnosis, which is Fribromatosis. I believe you’re correct on this one. I wouldn’t read it the other way. Everything I’ve ever received from my PPO reads like this when they’re covering something. Call them and double check, but it sounds like you’re in! This is great news!

Dawn, you can not believe how thrilled I am, although the anxiety is kicking in over my appointment up there, tomorrow. I couldn’t sleep all night; just had shortness of breath with my heart pounding. You know the drill. Thank goodness my husband is taking me there so I have his support. Thanks for yours! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – kilikini schreef: Hey folks, I got a letter from the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL today regarding my request for a Charity Case to treat my cancer. This is what a section of it said, and I’m interested in your interpretation of what it means because my husband and I are at odds. "Thank you for taking the time to fill out the financial questionnaire. We realize that some who come to Mayo Clinic may face financial hardships in meeting the cost of medical care. Mayo Clinic has reviewed your request for financial assistance. In order to help relieve some of your financial burder, we have approved your request. You will not be asked to make payment on any charges related to your diagnosis of Fibromatosis." Okay, question, to me that sounds like they’re taking me on and will help treat my condition. My husband says that he thinks it means they will help diagnose my condition. I’ve already been diagnosed. Doesn’t it sound like they will help with treatment? Any thoughts welcome! kili It *can* be read both ways although it seems more likely to me that it’s about free treatment. I mean, they don’t know yet what exactly they’re going to diagnose you with in the first place, do they? The way I read it , it says: "We’re going to see if you have fibromatosis (or maybe we already know that) and you will not have to pay on any charges *RELATED TO* this diagnosis. What else can be related to a diagnosis except treatment? Philip

Well, they’ve got my slides from my biopsy, I’m bringing my films, they’ve read the operative report AND pathology reports, so the diagnosis has been confirmed. I’m just hoping that this means treatment from this point on is covered. If so, I’ll be away from home for quite a while, which is a bummer. I’m already stressing over my appt. tomorrow. Sigh. We leave tonight. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey folks, I got a letter from the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL today regarding my request for a Charity Case to treat my cancer. This is what a section of it said, and I’m interested in your interpretation of what it means because my husband and I are at odds. "Thank you for taking the time to fill out the financial questionnaire. We realize that some who come to Mayo Clinic may face financial hardships in meeting the cost of medical care. Mayo Clinic has reviewed your request for financial assistance. In order to help relieve some of your financial burder, we have approved your request. You will not be asked to make payment on any charges related to your diagnosis of Fibromatosis." Okay, question, to me that sounds like they’re taking me on and will help treat my condition. My husband says that he thinks it means they will help diagnose my condition. I’ve already been diagnosed. Doesn’t it sound like they will help with treatment? Any thoughts welcome! kili Kili, I agree with the others.. I think they are saying they will cover anything related to your fibromatosis condition. This is such wonderful news, I am so very happy for you!!!!! Like everyone else said, I echo: call and confirm. If you are super anxious, call a few times LOL. Seriously. If you have a question, ask..and ask until you know that you know so you can relax and not wonder "what if". Keep that letter. Do what Jackie recommends, she knows her stuff. Love and congrats again, I am very happy for you. Sally Thanks, Sally! We have to leave for the clinic today, so I’ll be sure to call before we head up there. The woman in the Charity Case office and I have established a really good rapport. I just can’t believe they are going to help me! It’s been such a long struggle since I found my tumors in April. kili

Kili, I am really excited to hear what happens at the clinic, you have to please let us know what they say and do.. It is hard to believe really good news sometimes. Actually.. I am not sure it’s even sunk in with me that I found such a nice place to live after the sale of my home. I had pictured a cardboard box for like, a year, LOL. Someday it will hit me that I did not end up in anything like that, but that kind of traumatic worry can stick with you, even after the problem is resolved, LOL. How irrational is that? Try to believe this is real and try to enjoy it. I’ll attempt to realize I don’t reside in a cardboard box in the winter in a climate that can be brutal in the winter. Kili..I’m just so happy for you. You needed good news like this, and I don’t feel it is a coincidence that you had moved near the Mayo Clinic – in spite of the fact you despise where you do live, it looks to me like you ended up living in a place you may not have wanted to be, but would need to be. I’ve just had my life happen that way for me too many times, to not recognize it when it happens in the lives of others. We’ll be waiting to hear what happens at the clinic. Love you, Sally — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Sounds to me like they are saying they will help with the cost of treatment for the Fibromatosis! But…. is there a phone number you can call to be sure? Best wishes! MikeH

Thanks, Mike. There’s a really, really nice woman named Eloise who works in the Charity Case Department of Mayo Clinic who I’m going to call today before we leave just to be sure. If treatment is covered, that means an MRI, subsequent surgeries, radiation, etc. If it is what you all think it is, it’s amazing! kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Kili, it sounds like a free ride to me. Great! You should definitely clarify it with them, though.

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Hi, Kili, I agree with Jackie. This is wonderful news and a good start for you. DO keep a file of all emails or snail mail you receive from the clinic. smiles, Elise

Thanks, Elise! I’ve been keeping a file on everything I’ve received regarding the tumors so far. (The file is getting HUGE!) I’m already getting nervous for my oncologist appointment tomorrow, though. Luckily, my husband will be with me and that will help tremendously. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey folks, I got a letter from the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL today regarding my request for a Charity Case to treat my cancer. This is what a section of it said, and I’m interested in your interpretation of what it means because my husband and I are at odds. "Thank you for taking the time to fill out the financial questionnaire. We realize that some who come to Mayo Clinic may face financial hardships in meeting the cost of medical care. Mayo Clinic has reviewed your request for financial assistance. In order to help relieve some of your financial burder, we have approved your request. You will not be asked to make payment on any charges related to your diagnosis of Fibromatosis." Okay, question, to me that sounds like they’re taking me on and will help treat my condition. My husband says that he thinks it means they will help diagnose my condition. I’ve already been diagnosed. Doesn’t it sound like they will help with treatment? Any thoughts welcome! kili Kili, I agree with the others.. I think they are saying they will cover anything related to your fibromatosis condition. This is such wonderful news, I am so very happy for you!!!!! Like everyone else said, I echo: call and confirm. If you are super anxious, call a few times LOL. Seriously. If you have a question, ask..and ask until you know that you know so you can relax and not wonder "what if". Keep that letter. Do what Jackie recommends, she knows her stuff. Love and congrats again, I am very happy for you. Sally

Thanks, Sally! We have to leave for the clinic today, so I’ll be sure to call before we head up there. The woman in the Charity Case office and I have established a really good rapport. I just can’t believe they are going to help me! It’s been such a long struggle since I found my tumors in April. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey folks, I got a letter from the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL today regarding my request for a Charity Case to treat my cancer. This is what a section of it said, and I’m interested in your interpretation of what it means because my husband and I are at odds. "Thank you for taking the time to fill out the financial questionnaire. We realize that some who come to Mayo Clinic may face financial hardships in meeting the cost of medical care. Mayo Clinic has reviewed your request for financial assistance. In order to help relieve some of your financial burder, we have approved your request. You will not be asked to make payment on any charges related to your diagnosis of Fibromatosis." Okay, question, to me that sounds like they’re taking me on and will help treat my condition. My husband says that he thinks it means they will help diagnose my condition. I’ve already been diagnosed. Doesn’t it sound like they will help with treatment? Any thoughts welcome! Sounds to me like they’ll not charge you for anything related to the fibromatosis, but will not treat you for anything else. — David Chamberlain – ASAPM Moderator

Okay, consensus is in; sounds like I am going to get fully treated for the cancer. Yay! Thanks, David! I can’t believe I’m finally getting a break. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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I may borrow your note word for word, Jamie. :~) It sounds perfect. Thank you. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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kilikini schreef: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey folks, I got a letter from the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL today regarding my request for a Charity Case to treat my cancer. This is what a section of it said, and I’m interested in your interpretation of what it means because my husband and I are at odds. "Thank you for taking the time to fill out the financial questionnaire. We realize that some who come to Mayo Clinic may face financial hardships in meeting the cost of medical care. Mayo Clinic has reviewed your request for financial assistance. In order to help relieve some of your financial burder, we have approved your request. You will not be asked to make payment on any charges related to your diagnosis of Fibromatosis." Okay, question, to me that sounds like they’re taking me on and will help treat my condition. My husband says that he thinks it means they will help diagnose my condition. I’ve already been diagnosed. Doesn’t it sound like they will help with treatment? Any thoughts welcome! kili

It *can* be read both ways although it seems more likely to me that it’s about free treatment. I mean, they don’t know yet what exactly they’re going to diagnose you with in the first place, do they? The way I read it , it says: "We’re going to see if you have fibromatosis (or maybe we already know that) and you will not have to pay on any charges *RELATED TO* this diagnosis. What else can be related to a diagnosis except treatment? Philip — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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{{{{{{{Kili}}}}}}} I wish I had some good advice for you. Just breathe slowly in and out and see if that helps. Di

quicker. Next will be the stomach churning, heart beating fast and shaking. Dang it! Why am I so nervous????? My appointment is at 10:00 am, US EST, 3 hours away. I’ll let you know how it went. :-/ kili

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Thanks, Vashti. I wish I could do laundry (we really need to) but I don’t have a washer or dryer. :~)

Aw, you can come and borrow mine any time(I’m in The Netherlands

It seems likely to me that *if* the doc didn’t give the kind of results you need you’d have a chance of contesting it… but in this case, heck, it may prove my case! "What if my stomach goes off?" "What if I get the shakes?" "What if I get the sweats?" "What if I throw up?" In a way, I SHOULD exhibit those symptoms!

Put like that: go panic at this Pdoc! Seriously though: he’s likely seen it all so whatever happens it shouldn’t come as a surprise to him and it’s not as if he’s someone you’ll need to see regularly, right? I *have* panicked at a Pdoc and my own doc and have to say it did show these people what was troubling me better than the cheerful, "I’m fine" face I normally try to put on. Brought better results too. I dunno, I’m just scared, nervous, anxious and I want to stay home and stare at the computer screen.

{{{Kili}}} I know the feeling! Once you’ve been to this appointment promise yourself some time for yourself, maybe to do something you enjoy even if it is just watching tv, ok? — Vashti — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Ahhhh, Kili, AA is the pits. Hang in there. xxoo Anne — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Best of luck!! (((((((((Kili))))))))) — Ron P What? Me worry??? hahahaha Yah right!! — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Hi, Kili, smiles, Elise

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Hi, Kili, smiles, Elise

Thanks, Elise. I need those vibes. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – quicker. Next will be the stomach churning, heart beating fast and shaking. Dang it! {{{Kili}}} Try lying on your back(if that’s comfortable) and doing some abdominal breathing or maybe hold your breath for a count of ten if your heart rate goes up… that last one is what they had me do to get a baseline EKG and it really works somehow. If you do better being active, try and find some distraction… go on a laundry hunt(ok- maybe that’s just works if you’ve got kids and a lot of odd socks), set an alarm so you can ignore the time and do some cleaning or sorting. Distraction can be great against anticipatory anxiety. Why am I so nervous????? Because you’re thinking this appointment is important? It might not be as important as you think… and it is unlikely to go as badly as you may be imagining that it could. My appointment is at 10:00 am, US EST, 3 hours away. I’ll let you know how it went. :-/ I’ll be thinking of you Kili, I’m sure you’ll be *fine*! — Vashti

Thanks, Vashti. I wish I could do laundry (we really need to) but I don’t have a washer or dryer. :~) This appointment, actually, is very important, that’s the thing. If I they determine that I’m truly mentally "unstable" (although my husband could and would back that up), I may be able to qualify for medicaid – this appt. is the deciding factor. If I qualify, I can finally take meds to help control the anxiety. Not only that, I will hopefully be able to get treatment for my cancer. This is a two-fold appointment for me and extremely critical. this case, heck, it may prove my case! "What if my stomach goes off?" "What if I get the shakes?" "What if I get the sweats?" "What if I throw up?" In a way, I SHOULD exhibit those symptoms! I dunno, I’m just scared, nervous, anxious and I want to stay home and stare at the computer screen. kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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Next will be the stomach churning, heart beating fast and shaking. Dang it! Why am I so nervous????? My appointment is at 10:00 am, US EST, 3 hours away. I’ll let you know how it went. :-/ kili — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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quicker. Next will be the stomach churning, heart beating fast and shaking. Dang it!

{{{Kili}}} Try lying on your back(if that’s comfortable) and doing some abdominal breathing or maybe hold your breath for a count of ten if your heart rate goes up… that last one is what they had me do to get a baseline EKG and it really works somehow. If you do better being active, try and find some distraction… go on a laundry hunt(ok- maybe that’s just works if you’ve got kids and a lot of odd socks), set an alarm so you can ignore the time and do some cleaning or sorting. Distraction can be great against anticipatory anxiety. Why am I so nervous?????

Because you’re thinking this appointment is important? It might not be as important as you think… and it is unlikely to go as badly as you may be imagining that it could. My appointment is at 10:00 am, US EST, 3 hours away. I’ll let you know how it went. :-/

I’ll be thinking of you Kili, I’m sure you’ll be *fine*! — Vashti — The charter is available at: http://readystump.algebra.com/~asapm

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