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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I think it’s okay.  I don’t want to mourn the living, at least not before I know for sure what we’re dealing with.  Right now, Betty is happy and healthy, and in her mind, I’m sure, nothing is amiss. Still, I’ve had to numb my spirit a bit.  Before, Betty was like sunshine to me.  Now, I see Betty through dark clouds of concern. Before, we were carefree, and we would hug and dance.  Now, I handle her carefully, clinically – she’s become a patient. I had a dream where she could no longer work her jaw or eat, and I ordered her death by lethal injection.  As cold as a Roman emperor giving a thumbs-down. I feel like warning Betty to stay away from me.  I’m no longer the daddy she knew, the one she trusts and loves.  I’ll spirit her off. I’ll chop off her jaw.  I’ll have her put to sleep.  She can’t imagine the terrible things I could do. So I numb myself and I hope – that the cancer hasn’t spread widely. If it’s spread to her lungs or other organs, there probably isn’t much that can be done.  I hope that surgery and radiation will be enough, and even if it isn’t, we can make the best of whatever time we have left together – that’s all any cat and hoomin can do.

I am sorry to read the news about Betty’s biopsy results; we are purring very, very hard for her and for you. But you are wrong about not being the daddy she loves and trusts; this would have happened to her no matter what, and think how awful it would be for her if she didn’t have you – if she didn’t have love and comfort at home, and the medical care to give her a chance, and a gentle end if necessary.  She’s absolutely right to give you her love and her trust; it’s just an awfully hard thing for the human side of the equation. (((((((Tak))))))) —— Krista

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So I numb myself and I hope – that the cancer hasn’t spread widely. If it’s spread to her lungs or other organs, there probably isn’t much that can be done.  I hope that surgery and radiation will be enough, and even if it isn’t, we can make the best of whatever time we have left together – that’s all any cat and hoomin can do.

Aww, Tak. You and Betty are in our thoughts. I know all about having to do things to cats for their own good, when they don’t understand why they are being tortured so. If only they could understand our words, or we could talk so they understand. — Marina, Frank, Miranda and Caliban. In loving memory of Nikki. marina (dot) kurten (at) iki (dot) fi Pics at http://uk.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/frankiennikki/ and http://community.webshots.com/user/frankiennikki

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Aww, Tak. You and Betty are in our thoughts. I know all about having to do things to cats for their own good, when they don’t understand why they are being tortured so. If only they could understand our words, or we could talk so they understand.

You’ve had to medicate your kitties a lot, which is hard.  I’ve found Betty very easy to handle, but I’m sure she doesn’t like medical procedures.  At the last vet appointment, she was shaking with fear as I was holding her. Right now, things are still pretty normal.  Betty has an appointment with an oncologist next Thursday.

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Thank you for thinking about Betty, Pam.  It’s really not selfish to have a life – and you have enough on your plate for maybe two or three lives. I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center. Tak Tak, I’m so sorry I’ve been wondering all week, but hadn’t seen a topic about. Purrs contiue here in W. Suz&Spicey

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Tak:  I’m so sorry that the results were as expected.  We continue to send purrs and hugs your way. Susan M Otis and Chester

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Thank you for thinking about Betty, Pam.  It’s really not selfish to have a life – and you have enough on your plate for maybe two or three lives. I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center. Tak Tak, I’m so sorry I’ve been wondering all week, but hadn’t seen a topic about. Purrs contiue here in W. Suz&Spicey

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Please do *not* think you are doing anything bad to Betty, Tak, on the contrary, you are doing your very best to find the best cure possible for her. You are her saviour. I know this is hard, but please do not make it harder on yourself imagining things that could not be further away from the truth. Lots and lots of purrs and best wishes for Betty to recover and hugs for you, Tak, for taking such good care of her, — Polonca & Soncek

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I think it’s okay.  I don’t want to mourn the living, at least not before I know for sure what we’re dealing with.  Right now, Betty is happy and healthy, and in her mind, I’m sure, nothing is amiss. Still, I’ve had to numb my spirit a bit.  Before, Betty was like sunshine to me.  Now, I see Betty through dark clouds of concern. Before, we were carefree, and we would hug and dance.  Now, I handle her carefully, clinically – she’s become a patient. I had a dream where she could no longer work her jaw or eat, and I ordered her death by lethal injection.  As cold as a Roman emperor giving a thumbs-down. I feel like warning Betty to stay away from me.  I’m no longer the daddy she knew, the one she trusts and loves.  I’ll spirit her off. I’ll chop off her jaw.  I’ll have her put to sleep.  She can’t imagine the terrible things I could do. So I numb myself and I hope – that the cancer hasn’t spread widely. If it’s spread to her lungs or other organs, there probably isn’t much that can be done.  I hope that surgery and radiation will be enough, and even if it isn’t, we can make the best of whatever time we have left together – that’s all any cat and hoomin can do.

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Tak, I’m so sorry to read this.  I hope there is something that can be done to help Betty. You and Betty are in my thoughts and prayers. Annie Same here :(  I was sooooo hoping…. Purrs and prayers, good thoughts and hope to you and Betty. I think it’s okay.  I don’t want to mourn the living, at least not before I know for sure what we’re dealing with.  Right now, Betty is happy and healthy, and in her mind, I’m sure, nothing is amiss. Still, I’ve had to numb my spirit a bit.  Before, Betty was like sunshine to me.  Now, I see Betty through dark clouds of concern. Before, we were carefree, and we would hug and dance.  Now, I handle her carefully, clinically – she’s become a patient. I had a dream where she could no longer work her jaw or eat, and I ordered her death by lethal injection.  As cold as a Roman emperor giving a thumbs-down. I feel like warning Betty to stay away from me.  I’m no longer the daddy she knew, the one she trusts and loves.  I’ll spirit her off. I’ll chop off her jaw.  I’ll have her put to sleep.  She can’t imagine the terrible things I could do. So I numb myself and I hope – that the cancer hasn’t spread widely. If it’s spread to her lungs or other organs, there probably isn’t much that can be done.  I hope that surgery and radiation will be enough, and even if it isn’t, we can make the best of whatever time we have left together – that’s all any cat and hoomin can do.

If only love could cure our cats, then you and Betty would have nothing to worry about. Purrs that the treatment works and Betty has lots of quality time left. — Adrian (Owned by Snoopy & Bagheera) A house is not a home, without a cat. http://community.webshots.com/user/clowderuk

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I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

I’m sorry the results were not what you had hoped.  I hope Betty has good results with her treatment and you and she have a long life together. Candace

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I think it’s okay.  I don’t want to mourn the living, at least not before I know for sure what we’re dealing with.  Right now, Betty is happy and healthy, and in her mind, I’m sure, nothing is amiss. Still, I’ve had to numb my spirit a bit.  Before, Betty was like sunshine to me.  Now, I see Betty through dark clouds of concern. Before, we were carefree, and we would hug and dance.  Now, I handle her carefully, clinically – she’s become a patient. I had a dream where she could no longer work her jaw or eat, and I ordered her death by lethal injection.  As cold as a Roman emperor giving a thumbs-down. I feel like warning Betty to stay away from me.  I’m no longer the daddy she knew, the one she trusts and loves.  I’ll spirit her off. I’ll chop off her jaw.  I’ll have her put to sleep.  She can’t imagine the terrible things I could do. So I numb myself and I hope – that the cancer hasn’t spread widely. If it’s spread to her lungs or other organs, there probably isn’t much that can be done.  I hope that surgery and radiation will be enough, and even if it isn’t, we can make the best of whatever time we have left together – that’s all any cat and hoomin can do.

Tak, don’t underestimate Betty. I truly, honestly with all my heart believe that they *know* when you’re helping them. She won’t blame you. Heartfelt purrs going to you and Betty. Sherry

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Thank you for thinking about Betty, Pam.  It’s really not selfish to have a life – and you have enough on your plate for maybe two or three lives. I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

Our purrs for Betty’s health through the treatment regimen continue. Dan

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I feel like warning Betty to stay away from me.  I’m no longer the daddy she knew, the one she trusts and loves.  I’ll spirit her off. I’ll chop off her jaw.  I’ll have her put to sleep.  She can’t imagine the terrible things I could do.

Cats *do* have a way of knowing when we are working for their good.  Harri has always been terrified of strangers. But when I picked her up from the first vet to run her down to the specialist she allowed me to hold her in my arms and didn’t struggle or squirm, even when we were close to other people. She had enough energy that she could have, as she proved when she explored the car all the way to Westminster. She just knew that we were doing something important to her health. And when she was in the hospital, she again knew that the people sticking her with needles and things were doing so for her benefit. When Nancy and I went to visit her on her 2nd night in the hospital had a suction tube running into her chest, IV lines in both paws, and an E collar around her neck. But when I opened her cage door she didn’t hesitate to climb right into my arms and snuggle with me. Sure, the humans she was around were doing awful things to her, but she *knew* that it was all important and that it was all for her benefit. I believe that Betty knows the same about the treatments she will receive in your care.

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -I think it’s okay.  I don’t want to mourn the living, at least not before I know for sure what we’re dealing with.  Right now, Betty is happy and healthy, and in her mind, I’m sure, nothing is amiss. Still, I’ve had to numb my spirit a bit.  Before, Betty was like sunshine to me.  Now, I see Betty through dark clouds of concern. Before, we were carefree, and we would hug and dance.  Now, I handle her carefully, clinically – she’s become a patient. I had a dream where she could no longer work her jaw or eat, and I ordered her death by lethal injection.  As cold as a Roman emperor giving a thumbs-down. I feel like warning Betty to stay away from me.  I’m no longer the daddy she knew, the one she trusts and loves.  I’ll spirit her off. I’ll chop off her jaw.  I’ll have her put to sleep.  She can’t imagine the terrible things I could do. So I numb myself and I hope – that the cancer hasn’t spread widely. If it’s spread to her lungs or other organs, there probably isn’t much that can be done.  I hope that surgery and radiation will be enough, and even if it isn’t, we can make the best of whatever time we have left together – that’s all any cat and hoomin can do.

I’m so sorry that you and Betty are going through this.  Hugs, prayers, mega purrs that the cancer is localized. Purrs and Hugs, Nan

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Tak, I’m so sorry to read this.  I hope there is something that can be done to help Betty. You and Betty are in my thoughts and prayers. Annie Same here :(  I was sooooo hoping…. Purrs and prayers, good thoughts and hope to you and Betty. I think it’s okay.  I don’t want to mourn the living, at least not before I know for sure what we’re dealing with.  Right now, Betty is happy and healthy, and in her mind, I’m sure, nothing is amiss. Still, I’ve had to numb my spirit a bit.  Before, Betty was like sunshine to me.  Now, I see Betty through dark clouds of concern. Before, we were carefree, and we would hug and dance.  Now, I handle her carefully, clinically – she’s become a patient. I had a dream where she could no longer work her jaw or eat, and I ordered her death by lethal injection.  As cold as a Roman emperor giving a thumbs-down. I feel like warning Betty to stay away from me.  I’m no longer the daddy she knew, the one she trusts and loves.  I’ll spirit her off. I’ll chop off her jaw.  I’ll have her put to sleep.  She can’t imagine the terrible things I could do.

I had to do all kinds of horrible things to her, but her love and trust didn’t waiver in the least.  She somehow *knew* I was doing all that because I love her and she didn’t blame me even for a minute.  Believe me, Betty will know you love her as much, if not more, than ever before. So I numb myself and I hope – that the cancer hasn’t spread widely. If it’s spread to her lungs or other organs, there probably isn’t much that can be done.  I hope that surgery and radiation will be enough, and even if it isn’t, we can make the best of whatever time we have left together – that’s all any cat and hoomin can do.

I know.  You do have to numb yourself in order to do what you need to do – otherwise you couldn’t function in order to help your baby. Mega purrs are coming that you’ll have lots and lots of quality time left with Betty. Hugs, CatNipped

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I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

(((((((((((Tak))))))))))))) Purrs that the specialists can give Betty a long life with excellent quality of life. Other than that I don’t really know what to say, except that you and Betty are receving lots of purrs from here (and others around the world) and you’ll be in my prayers. — Steve Touchstone, faithful servant of Sammy, Little Bit and Spot with loving memories of Rocky (RB) Home Page: http://www.sirinet.net/~stouchst/index.html Cat Pix: http://www.sirinet.net/~stouchst/animals.html

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I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

Sorry to hear this. We join your many cyberfriends all over the world in hoping & purring that Betty can be treated successfully, or if the disease has gone so far that treatment would be too drastic to be undertaken she passes peacefully, painlessly & with dignity. Purrs again Gordon (who ordered that last injection back in February) Bandit, Snowball, Claudius & Raki. In loving memory of Pericles, RB 2.5.2005

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – When I posted my college update, I forgot to put in what has been edging the back of my mind.  I won’t be in here as often as before due to all the work for school.  So I want to offer up purrs and best wishes for all of you. Tak, I’m so sorry about Miss Betty’s jaw.  I hope that it is benign, and that she will be the delight of your heart for a long time to come.  I’m thinking about you all, and hoping that everything is wonderful for you. The cats are disgruntled about me not posting for them, but, while they don’t seem to have forgiven me, they haven’t bitten me on the butt yet. Pam S. Thank you for thinking about Betty, Pam.  It’s really not selfish to have a life – and you have enough on your plate for maybe two or three lives. I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

I’m sorry to hear about Betty’s results.  I hope they can help at oncology. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text –

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When I posted my college update, I forgot to put in what has been edging the back of my mind.  I won’t be in here as often as before due to all the work for school.  So I want to offer up purrs and best wishes for all of you. Tak, I’m so sorry about Miss Betty’s jaw.  I hope that it is benign, and that she will be the delight of your heart for a long time to come.  I’m thinking about you all, and hoping that everything is wonderful for you. The cats are disgruntled about me not posting for them, but, while they don’t seem to have forgiven me, they haven’t bitten me on the butt yet. Pam S. — http://www.mousertails.blogspot.com Mouser Tails:  The voyages of the Mouser I’m not bad…I’m just written that way

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When I posted my college update, I forgot to put in what has been edging the back of my mind.  I won’t be in here as often as before due to all the work for school.  So I want to offer up purrs and best wishes for all of you. Tak, I’m so sorry about Miss Betty’s jaw.  I hope that it is benign, and that she will be the delight of your heart for a long time to come.  I’m thinking about you all, and hoping that everything is wonderful for you. The cats are disgruntled about me not posting for them, but, while they don’t seem to have forgiven me, they haven’t bitten me on the butt yet. Pam S.

Thank you for thinking about Betty, Pam.  It’s really not selfish to have a life – and you have enough on your plate for maybe two or three lives. I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

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.. I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

Tak, I’m so sorry to read this.  I hope there is something that can be done to help Betty. You and Betty are in my thoughts and prayers. Annie

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.. I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center. Tak, I’m so sorry to read this.  I hope there is something that can be done to help Betty. You and Betty are in my thoughts and prayers. Annie

Same here :(  I was sooooo hoping…. Purrs and prayers, good thoughts and hope to you and Betty.

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I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

Damn.  I’m so sorry.  I was hoping it would be better news.  Purrs to you and Betty, Tak.   Tish

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I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

We’re sending lots of healing purrs. — Victor M. Martinez Owned and operated by the Fantastic Seven (TM)

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<snipped I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

So sorry to hear this, Tak.  Recovery purrs for Betty commencing. Sam, closely supervised and ably assisting in purring by Mistletoe

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – When I posted my college update, I forgot to put in what has been edging the back of my mind.  I won’t be in here as often as before due to all the work for school.  So I want to offer up purrs and best wishes for all of you. Tak, I’m so sorry about Miss Betty’s jaw.  I hope that it is benign, and that she will be the delight of your heart for a long time to come.  I’m thinking about you all, and hoping that everything is wonderful for you. The cats are disgruntled about me not posting for them, but, while they don’t seem to have forgiven me, they haven’t bitten me on the butt yet. Pam S. Thank you for thinking about Betty, Pam.  It’s really not selfish to have a life – and you have enough on your plate for maybe two or three lives. I got word on Betty’s biopsy results today, and they were as expected, so I’ve gotten a referral, and have been setting up a consult with the veterinary oncology center.

I’m so sorry, Tak.  Purrs for the treatment to be successful so that you and Betty can have many more years together. — Britta "There is no snooze button on a cat who wants breakfast." — Unknown Check out pictures of Vino at: http://photos.yahoo.com/badwilson click on the Vino album

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Tak, I’m so sorry to read this.  I hope there is something that can be done to help Betty. You and Betty are in my thoughts and prayers. Annie Same here :(  I was sooooo hoping…. Purrs and prayers, good thoughts and hope to you and Betty.

I think it’s okay.  I don’t want to mourn the living, at least not before I know for sure what we’re dealing with.  Right now, Betty is happy and healthy, and in her mind, I’m sure, nothing is amiss. Still, I’ve had to numb my spirit a bit.  Before, Betty was like sunshine to me.  Now, I see Betty through dark clouds of concern. Before, we were carefree, and we would hug and dance.  Now, I handle her carefully, clinically – she’s become a patient. I had a dream where she could no longer work her jaw or eat, and I ordered her death by lethal injection.  As cold as a Roman emperor giving a thumbs-down. I feel like warning Betty to stay away from me.  I’m no longer the daddy she knew, the one she trusts and loves.  I’ll spirit her off. I’ll chop off her jaw.  I’ll have her put to sleep.  She can’t imagine the terrible things I could do. So I numb myself and I hope – that the cancer hasn’t spread widely. If it’s spread to her lungs or other organs, there probably isn’t much that can be done.  I hope that surgery and radiation will be enough, and even if it isn’t, we can make the best of whatever time we have left together – that’s all any cat and hoomin can do.

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